Me and Mine

Update! Update!!!

2010-06-21T12:06:00.000-07:00

I cant believe that it has been this long since i have posted on my Blog!!! actually i can believe it... I became rather Dis-enchanted with my Blog ever since FB-ha it does seem to take a little more work to post on a blog....and with all that has been happening FB sound bites have been all that i have had time for...But i will attempt to Recount some of the highlights of the last 6 mos...
Lets see since my last post I have Given birth to the most beautiful baby.#3 she is perfect in every sense of the word and i cant believe how in love I am with her!! She is beautiful....and was born extreemly quickly!! we barely made it too the hospital as i was in final stage labour...My water broke at 6:00 I laid down for a minute and within like 2 minutes I was having Crazy strong contractions..the kind where you cant walk or do anyting but brace your self and breath...I told rick that we would need to go to the hospital and my water had broke and i guess rememebering my other births there was usually about 5 Hrs between water breaking and birth..so rick called Paula who was gonna watch out kids and told her the news but told her she didnt have to come right a way and proceeded to start cooking breakfast...I guess he didnt realize how far along i actually was and cheerily called out to me asking me how many eggs I wanted for breakfast-ha!! I was like BF..we dont have time for that we need to go NOW!!!...we had about a half hour drive to the hospital and it was a very winding road..Oh lord that was the hardest and longest drive i have ever taken in my life!!...Its funny I desperatly wanted to have an Epidural as i never was able to expirience a "pain free" Childbirth!!..But when i arrived at the hospital I was in such intense labour i couldnt even sit up on the bed they told me that i would have to sign a bunch of waivers, and get an IV placed in my hand...Just the thot of those things seemd waaaay too much to bear and I panted out that i didnt think i could sign anything..to which all the nurses agreed whole heartily and continued to try and get me up on the table so that i wouldnt give birth on the floor!...the doctor wasnt there yet so the nurses all planed for an emergency nurse assisted CB...they were trying to get me to wait for the doctor and told me not to push, but after a few minutes of watching me thrash and scream, they relented and said that i could push!! a few minutes later there was this fat little pink thing lying on the table..It was my little Peanut!!!! there she was safe and sound!!--Rick and I just stared at each other in disbalief..we couldnt believe that we actually just had our baby..my contractions started at 6 and there we were with the baby in our arms at 8:00 exactly 2 hrs later!!..and she was the cutest thing ever!! they took sooo long to give her to me!! that was hard, they kept doing all these things with her normally they would at least let the baby lay on my chest for a minute...but no!! the other thing i remember was hopping of the table and walking to my recovery room...they usually wheel you there, but i guess i was just fine and dandy..No stiches either Praise God and that certainly came in handy as I really didnt have much time to recouperate..aside from the night at the hospital, I was on my own!! ha Rick and the kids left for the weekend and i had to do it all- all the night time wakefulness cook my own food Etc...but little Skye is the best baby in the whole world, so I really cant complain!-
We now have a pretty good grove and there are days that are manageable and days that are not I know the next two years are gonna probaby be are hardest yet, but i am very happy I have my perfect little family of three!!!

A little advice

2010-06-21T12:03:00.000-07:00

My advise to anyone planning on having three kids....DONT untill you can afford a Nanny and a MAID!!!!.....Those are the Key ingredients to sanity...and alas since I can afford niether....My life is in constant chaos!!!!..And Yes, I am Insane!

Haiti

2010-01-21T08:34:00.000-08:00

I wish there was somthing I could do about Haiti!!--I was watching the news last night...its actually pretty hard for me to watch it as I get pretty emotional, there are such difficult images on the screen all the time and its esp hard when it is sooo close to home with babies,children etc...Any how i was watching the news and they were showing two women who gave birth on the side of the road!!--It was pretty rough as they didnt have anything!! The volunteers didnt even have sterile equiptment to cut the cords...not to mention the mothers of these little new borns have lost everything and dont have a single diaper or bottle or clothes etc...they were interviewing one of the women who said that she had lost her other child a 6 year old son in the earthquake, and she was all alone now with her little newborn, and she said "I will be Relying on GOD to help me raise this little one" as she had nothing, no fam no house no money and a newborn!!
I feel like i have been haunted by that, I was like Gosh she has soo much faith..Who is gonna be God for her?? and i feel sooo frustrated feeling like there is nothing i can do to help, and the more i think about it Im like I could try and organise a drive, as I know that every single mom or mother to be here in the states probably has something that they could give toward this!!! I know there are alot of ppl bringing aid into Haiti, but how far down to the grass root level is this aid gonna get, I know these little ppl who are suffering in the streets arent gonna get cash in there hands...and how likely are they gonna get very much at all?? Is this mother gonna get diapers for her baby?? are the kids gonna have food and clothes and water?--Im expecting a newborn soon and even tho I actually dont have very much for this baby, at least I have a roof to put over her head, and she has a daddy that can buy her diapers, and I have food so i will be able to nurse her!
Its frustrating, and if anyone knows of anyone doing a drive esp for babies and kids I would really like to know!--As I feel like just starting something of my own, all tho there would be alot of logistic nightmares...and how would i get stuff to them, I just feel really bad looking at all the stuff that my kids and i take for granted everyday, and know how desperately someone else could use them!!--well if anyone knows of any organisations or churches that are doing something like this (not just fundraiser but goods and items specifically for babies and children I would love to get involved and help get stuff together for that, I worked in relief efforts for years, and i remember how hard it was to get alot of these things into the hands of those who really needed it and it usually took alot of volunteers on foot or in boats PERSONALLY taking these needed items and delivering them INTO the HANDS of the ppl who needed it, other wise it never would of gotten to them, somtimes the huge and well funded operations can only go so far..and God I can imagine if I had a little newborn in the middle of the street, what I would give for a little package of "care essentials" Like wet wipes and diapers etc!!
Anyhow, I guess I will continue to pray for a way that I can help MORE--Any ideas!!!!

updates

2010-01-18T13:55:00.000-08:00

Lena loves to sing!!! I remember even when she was a little baby playing in her crib if i started singing a song or humming a tune I would hear this little voice trying to mimick my my song..so cute..she has been doing it lately again like this morning i was singing a song that she didnt know..but of course she doesnt know that she doesnt know it and is not about to let you know she doesnt know it...and she was singing away with me trying desperately and enthusiasticly to keep up-ha it was really funny and cute! and i may add she did pretty well..What a funny little girl, she loves to be silly too and will actually genuinely "get stuff" if someone does something funny or makes a joke she is pretty Quick and 'gets it and we will hear her start laughing and we will all be like "Woa she totally got our joke" ha..This is true for scarcasm as well..and she is very sensitive!! or if you think something she is doing is funny and your not trying to be mean or anything and you copy her or tell someone about it she will get a little sensitive..like in the car today, trev had his favorite song on and was dancing his usual "crazy" dance...I looked in the rear view mirror and saw her trying to copy it it was sooo cute she had her little finger out and was trying to do the same move so i showed trev..i was like look lena was going like this trying to copy your dance...then when we looked back to see her she had this really kinda upset look on her face like "stop teasing me" Ohhh poor baby...another super cute thing she does right now is when she wakes up in the morning and i go to get her out of her crib she says "GOOD MORNING MOMMY" super enthusiastcally but in her thick little baby accent and she kinda struggles to get all three of those big words out, but it is soooo very dear!!! I should record it!!
At night too she sometimes will be in bed but still too excited to fall asleep and will start crying for me to come and see her, of course when i finally come in the room she doesnt actually need anything and her crying will stop instantly and she will say, Mommy, mommy.Guess what!! and she will just want to 'chat' with me about various things that happened to her that day like a typical girl!! but its really cute the way she says 'guess what' a bunch of times...sometimes she will be thinking of something to say just to keep me there a little longer, and will keep saying Guess what, and i wil say what?..and she actually doesnt have anything to say so she will say 'Guess what'again--ha.
what else?? Oooo trev had his first Kiss!! His dad doesnt even know about it, He told Me!!!--I'm soooo glad! I always wondered if we had a good enough relationship for him to tell me these things, i guess if he ever read what im posting about i doubt he will ever tell me anything again-heh...Its funny when he came in the house i just knew something was up he was kinda hanging around with this little grin on his face like he was just bursting at the seems..so i was like whats up, whats going on...tee hee. (it was a little neighborhood girl his age)-ha, her older brother dared them!--but hey, it still counts right!
Its amazing how the time flies..and how big Trev is! It almost seems like another life ago instead of a few short years ago, that i was still helping him get dressed and he was my one and only little baby-man...I guess having another baby in the house helps you see your older child as well so much older as instead of a 7 year old being your "baby" you actually have a baby so they are definitely the 7 year old...ha the danger is when you start treating them like they are 10 or something when they really are still little and altho not as little as the baby still do need love care and attention!!--Its pretty hard these days finding things to do with trev as most of the things that I suggest we do together he finds "boring" and the things he is interested in and enjoys have little to do with a mommy, its usually just VDO games and hanging out with his friends...but i really do need to find some ways to "reconect with my big guy"

Just you and me!!

2010-01-18T13:51:00.000-08:00

This Blog has become so intimate--Since i never blog and no one reads this, Im pretty much just talking to myself and keeping some memories of my kids alive...I really kinda like it! I see my blog in a whole new way-:)...I probably should just scrap the whole Blog thing and get a diary, but i was never good at keeping a diary and in my house it will probably just end up as scrap paper anyways!--just hope nothing comes back to haunt me from the internet...u know how that goes

updates

2010-01-18T12:35:00.000-08:00

So....Lena has been weened from her Paci--I wouldnt say it was a huge success...she still ask's for it almost a month later..and God forbid she sees another kid with one!!--I guess my lesson is not to wait that long to ween a kid from there paci it just gets harder the older they are...When she sees another baby with a paci its one thing..she understands that the Binky fairy gave all her Paci's to the BABIES but what really gets her is when she sees an older kid like obvioulsly her age or older with a passy--Well it sure is hard for me to explain that away..she will usually go up to them with a very indignant look and say "My Dee" and try and snatch it out of there mouth--Its funny she is like 'hey how did you get that, it was suppossed to be for the babies'!! Oh well Im hoping by the time new baby comes this wont be an issue as all my babies were big paci babies!!

right now

2009-12-10T19:36:00.000-08:00

In the throes of weaning lena off both bottle and Passy right now!! I know i waited too long but I was simply dreading this day and because of that kept putting it off! it has soo far been a very intense struggle and we are comming up on the second night!--the first was awful and i did feel quite badly for her as she is obviously VERY addicted-the main struggle is her passy-or Dee as she calls it! she will actually look for it in the middle of the night with her eyes closed and she could do the whole thing with out waking up--her little hand would grope around for it, Find in and pop it back into her mouth with out opening her eyes...and it has been quite sad seeing her try and do the same thing yet her searches ending in vain all night last night I could hear her making little sucking noises as she tried to find a supplement for her beloved dee...she would hold her had to her mouth and be soo sleepy...but then get all frustrated and start screaming again and get herself all worked up in a tizzy! and it is soooo hard to sooth her as she wants nothing else...Im hoping that tonight will be easier, but am bracing myself!!--When the process is all said and done I will blog about it for the Archives!!

My Tree

2009-11-30T11:33:00.000-08:00

So I went out yesterday all excited to buy decorations for my tree!!! while my husband set the tree up!--I was sooo dissapointed when i got home and saw the tree, as it looked soooo small and Bare, I guess i didnt quite remember how big it was, I do remember the year we bought it we were sooo straped for cash that it seemed like such a 'perfect' tree and for only 18 dollars!! but this year it doesnt seem to quite cut it--and looking at my reciept i spent 3 times as much as the tree actually cost on decorations!!!
Well the saddest part is Rick refuses to get me another tree...as in his mind it is a "perfectly good tree" plus he already set the "whole thing up"!! GADZ!--well i guess i will just have to make do with my dinky tree!-i guess it doesnt hurt to be 'frugal' for one more year-heh(altho i cant really say that i have been frugal-at least im helping him save his money)!! And did i ever mention how nice it is to come christmas time be able to go to your storage and be able to start out with that much more decorations that your not gonna have to buy!!! I had all the basicis, now i can just add a little bit more every year! till one of these years i will be competing with the rest of the Joneses, for the "best decorated house on the Block!!!--I LOVE christmas!! and i love that we have not had ot make any MAJOR moves (like overseas)--and i love how good Jesus is to me and i love that i have 2 more sibblings living in the States now that will hopefully spend C'mas with me!!!'-happy holidays!

Wow!!

2009-11-21T13:03:00.000-08:00

I can hardly believe that this year is almost over!!! time sure flies when your having fun :)
I have learned many valuble lessons this year,( But i have still not learned how to spell valuable) Yes I know that the year Isn't over yet,but Im still thinking about my lessons...oh and im thinking about thanksgiving dinner!!!
These are a few of the lessons that i learned this year!

1) Never,Never try and use the bathroom when your out alone with the kids...Believe me it just doesn't work!! Mom's are just not supposed to Pee, they are supposed to magically be able to hold it!!(this is a particularly difficult lesson if you happen to be PG) they are also never supposed to be thirsty or hungry, Cuz how on earth would they be able to afford food for themselves AND their KID's when out!!! and since they have learned to be Polite and not scream in the restaurant, and their kids haven't--they must be content to simply stare at there kids fries and burgers, and hope that they will share, thankfully most kids meals taste like CRAYONS, so this will not be a tremendous battle until the fast food restaurants start making "pho noodle" kids meals. Another important lesson that i learned is when ordering at a fast food place always ask for your food to go even tho you will be there playing at the play ground for hours..I know it doesnt make much sense cuz if it really was to go you would just be at the drive through! but until the suckers at these joints realize this...you will get your food twice as fast as the other honest ppl who said that they were eating in!

I have also learned never to expect your Scorpio child to perform for others upon your request!! as your would be "proud mother" moment, will be turned to humiliation as they will purposely do something terrible instead!!! like throw their passy at the sweet lady who just wanted to hear them say 'thank you' or bye, or hello...or one of the other neat little tricks that they have learned,

I have also learned that Wal-Mart is where the Devil enters children and causes them to throw the biggest most Embarasing tantrums EVER so avoid that place like the plague...I'm serious!!!
I have also learned that you should never be so naive as to think that your 7 year old son would make a good baby sitter,or that your 7 year old son would ever do much at all to help you out! that idea was for children of bygone days in the "Charles Dickenson" era, where ppl actually relied on children as young as five to help support the family!
No they really have all they can possibly handle just taking care of their homework!!
Well I think those are my Biggest lessons! PTL!

more toddler news

2009-11-14T16:08:00.000-08:00

have a few minutes to myself so im hittin up this ol blog!! My belly is starting to get "in the way" Not fun...i remember the agony of bending over in the last stages of my Pregnancy last time!! oh well!! st least it will be over with soon enuf..
In other news, lena seems to think one Stuffed Monkey needs 6 diapers I walked out of my room to find clean daipers littered all over my living room! Fun--Such a good mommy!--She also LOVES playing with Cars!! I think somehow daddy has more to do with that than me...In fact she seems to enjoy her cars more than her dolls as her doll house is always filled with cars instead of Dolls--ha its cute...at least she is not one of those really Prissy girls that can be annoying. She turned 2 yesterday and i still find it hard to believe taht i have a 2 year old! now i feel all pressured to ween her from her bottles and passy and potty train her!-- now if any one knows my darling lena this will be no small feat!! she has a will of IRON! Be;ieve me it is waaay stronger than mine! she will out last the best ofm in a showdown! even the dreaded swat doesnt work with this one--she will stick out her hand defiantly for one more...and scream just as loud for a "smack" as she was for whatever else it was she was screaming for--oh dear!!... I used to think I was a good Mom and had it all under controll till this one showed up!!
Well wish me luck! someones gotta do it and its certainly not gonna be Daddy!-ha

sometimes I wonder??

2009-10-31T22:10:00.001-07:00

Im sure every Mom feels this...but sometimes I look at my kids and i wonder how I could love number 3 as much as i love these to guys...I know that it is possible for your capacity of love to just get bigger and bigger, I guess it has too...but right now i still wonder how it could be possible?? Im enjoying these 2 little guys soo much...but i guess one more will just be one more to love...One thing that i have found is that each kid usually comes with his own unique little set of personality traits..that become soo endearing with time..even the "difficult" Kids still have those amazingly adorable little thngs about them that you just cant get enough of!!

happy halloween!!!!

2009-10-31T21:18:00.000-07:00

had so much fun Trick or treating with the kids..Esp since it was Leanas first TT experience!! We got all dressed up, trev eas a very scarey skeleton with Blood!! he insisted that this year he was NOT gonna be some dumm super hero...He needed to be scary!!! at first i was worried that i would not be able to take the Two of them (Lena and Trev) TT together as Lena was scared of his mask...But seeing as he got his costume welll in advance of halloween, she had ample time to get warmed up to it..and even took to wearing the"scary mask" herself and loved seeing us wear it and make scary noises...in fact she ended up warming up to it sooo much that she would insist on Kissing the Skeleton head??(wierd I know) Another Morbid scorpio thing!! Dont ask me why-- they do have this thing for scary stuff and seem to enjoy getting scared...like in the Grocery store she would at first be terrified of the displays, but as soon as i would take her away from them she would cry to see "Scary" again.

Anyhow, she was a fairy...and even tho it was a simple costume we had lots of fun getting dressed up and esp putting "make up" on!!I Put pretty blue shadow on her eyes and Red lips she was sooo cute making her little 'Oooo' mouth as i applied the lipstick...before we drove up to the houses i gave her, her little bucket and told her PPL were gonna put candy in it!! from that moment on she very carefully held her little bucket and even gave up her fairy wand as she some how Knew the importance of this bucket she was now holding! The first house we went to was very nicely decorated with Pumkin lights and a Giant Pumkin at the door which delighted her to no end!! Trev and i were lagging behind the little fairy, as she stoped and looked behind and said "come on guys" It was soo cute to see her sauntering her little self over to this house and straight up to the door even tho she didnt have a clue what she was supposed to do there. The lady came out and lo an d behold there was another little princess in the door way...Nothing scary!! yeah!!!...she got a little candy and just stared in awe at her little bucket!!! How magical was that!!!...To my suprise she didnt dive into her bucket to retrieve her candy!! No..this was muh too precious for that..she just stared at it in disbelief...and would continually Peek in to make sure it was still there, as we made our way to the other houses... the third house had a group of witches(not too scary) sitting around a real fire! as we approached she yelled "Fire Truck" (Pretty good!-ha)..the ladies were very nice and she seemed to tolerate the Witches as long as they were doing that awesome thing of putting candy in her bucket...but there was a rather scary looking stuffed ware-wolf that was sitting in a chair, she didnt seem to scared by it...but after that she refused to go near another house!! and would say... scary, Scary!! we did manage to go to 2 more houses after that tho the last house we went to she had seen another little princess head toward it with little blinking shoes and became so fascinated by the other girls shoes that she didnt notice that we were heading for another very decorated house!! she kept checking her own shoes to see if they were blinking-ha..any how we made it to the house with out incident...but as we were leaving she started to notice all the things around her, one of which was a coffin with a man rising as he came out...when she saw this she quickly said in her Bravest voice! HI MAN!!!! Another Precious moment!!....and thus concludes our halloween night!!! it was just perfect even tho it was short!! it was all lena could handle...and trev has been under the weather lately, so he agreed that he was ready to go home as well!!! Perfect! I had fun and i will cherish this memory! Oh and did i mention how beautiful the moon looked!!

more Lena

2009-09-19T12:44:00.000-07:00

The other night while we were eating dinner, Lena went around to each of us to ask us if the food was good!?

Dad!-Its Good?? Mom-Its Good?? Trev-Its good?...So cute!

a conversation with lena

2009-09-18T09:43:00.000-07:00

A conversation with Lena these days goes something like this(Note that her favorite word is NO so things can get a little complicated at times)

Lena:(asking for a strawberry)'nother swerberry'
Me: You want another strawberry?
Lena: NO!
Me: You dont want another strawbery?
Lena: Nother Swaberry!!
Me: you want another strawberry
Lena: No
Me: Yes you do
Lena: No
Me: you want a strawberry
Lena: Alright!!

Hahah....I love how she goes 'Alright' as if im the one having to convince her to eat what she asked for!!--God forbid she just say 'Yes'..so funny they just have to be so Acertive at this age right..I offer her the straberry, and she says 'no' but promptly takes it out of my hand and starts eating it.

Sad but true!

2009-09-17T15:56:00.000-07:00

We have created a world that is monstrous in its demands: to earn more, to buy more, to display our worth to the world through the stuff that we own and the high status we acquire in the workplace.
And in the process we have shunned the things that matter far more to our sense of happiness and well-being: the strength of friendships, the bonds of family and community, the tranquillity of less pressured lives.

Read more: http://www.dailymail.co.uk/debate/article-1203106/ROSIE-BOYCOTT-She-mother-lawyer-jumped-bridge--does-death-tell-Britain-today.html#ixzz0RPIcwyPK

So true huh--I know i can certainly get caught up in that. but it takes the joy of living in the moment away!

Me and Mine: Hmmph

2009-09-13T10:56:00.000-07:00

Me and Mine: Hmmph

Hmmph

2009-09-13T10:03:00.000-07:00

I am soooo not a morning person!!!!!!!!!!!!
Leaving my house before 11:00 Never happens.
But,this morning my son insisted on pancakes! We didn't have any pancake mix which meant i had to go to the garage for some flour....Of course i look disheveled, Im in my Pj's still, but threw a frumpled sweater on to hide the fact that im not wearing a bra.
I truck the kids down to the garages--as i know for a fact Lena wont let me get more than three ft away from her with out freaking out!!(I know-- sometimes i wish i could just do these things real quick with out the kids) and the last thing i wanted this morning was to draw any extra attention to my self..So we go to the garage basically with out incident..Of course a five minute trip for me turns into a half an hour with the kids as they want to play with all kinds of things that have been stored in the Garage, and Lena decides she wants to sit in our wagon for about 15 minutes hoping i guess that someone will give her a ride but like most other mothers at eight o'clock in the morning, i know that this is not gonna happen!! It is far to early i haven't had any coffee in fact i really just woke up and want to get back to my house!!

My son is playing with the garage door and nearly shuts it on my head for which i reprimand him...so, were on our way back up to our house of course this time i am lugging a bunch more things that i didn't have on the way down...(Mom look at this can we bring it up to the house)(You know the drill)--I have Lena dangling from one arm and i use my other hand to cart the rest of my stuff back up the hill to my house. My son is still playing with the door--so i yell back at him, Shut the garage door and lock it....I'm half way up the hill when he starts freaking out that he cant shut the door...
So i get myself and Lena parked up the hill and tell him to watch the baby so i can go and shut the garage door!! (buy this time i am sooo over this trip and am annoyed at my son that he suddenly cant shut the door)
Any how i give him strict orders to watch my toddler while i sprint back down the hill and shut the door--Of course i hear the Wails start behind me the second i take off and by wails i mean the most dramatic sounds you have ever heard!!! Yes it sounds like someone is torturing the poor child--she of course starts tearing down the hill after me....I try to lock the garage door as frantically as i can and head back up the hill...but tooo late my daughter has now not only woken up the whole neighborhood, but i see her running down the hill followed closely by none other than a Gorgeously Hot man!!! With a look of grave concern over the poor abandoned 2 year old..Great i mumble to myself( not only do I look like a nightmare but now i also look like the 'worst mom in the world' as my daughter continues her dramatic wails of abandonment!! I try to mumble some words like "her brother is there with her i was just around the corner..She is very dramatic etc...all the while trying to hide my self behind my screaming child..But painfully aware of his eyes burning a hole right through me)
We finally make it into the house and all breath a sigh of relief!! That was not a way to start your day i think to myself and make a mental note to never run out of anything in the house again!!!!

Lena

2009-09-12T14:38:00.000-07:00

(note from writer: No children were actually hurt in said stories...and i am exercising my creative freedom in the writing of this--no offense meant to be taken:-)

Lena has a fierce Streak in her! a jealous streak i may add...she adores other kids, but will not tolerate another kid upstaging her!!!
So i knew it was coming this morning when she flew off the couch in a flurry, with a look of rage in her eyes and began to vigorously hit the Television screen!!

The object of her furry was a 'pompous' toddler who was perched at his mini Piano clanking out notes while proudly singing his ABC's --One of Lena's special songs mind you!!
What can i say--I guess she just didn't like his attitude--I cant entirely blame her either..He was entirely too pleased with him self! and what the heck, lena can sing that song just as good--and doesn't even need a stupid piano to accompany her--:

But what i really could tell was that she was very Jealous of him--poor thing, I pitty the poor soul that ends up dating her...cant say i didnt warn you- there is no furry worse then the furry of a jealous scorpio women-ha!!

This happened another time when she was much younger at that--we were at the library and another little toddler sauntered in all dressed up with her little bracelet's-a purse and those coveted Sunglasses-heck i even think she was wearing gloves!!.This was really more than Lena could stomach.
Then the girl had the nerve to stand right next to Lena with out saying a word, and with no good reason to be that close to her. it was simply her way of saying "check me out little girl".."How cool am I"--Well she found out pretty quick that all Lena cared about was teaching her a good lesson In modesty!! with a swift whack aimed toward her decorated arm!!

I of course was very shocked at this sudden outburst from my usually loving,friendly,good natured child...But since then i have certainly seen a pattern!!...see Lena is just very insightful..and doesn't like proud superficial people..she can readm like a book and spot them a mile away--even if its in TV land. So watch out all you proud stinkin toddlers..
Snicker, snicker

I have decided!

2009-09-12T14:33:00.000-07:00

So i have decided that i will still keep this blog open and try and write in it more often, i am aware that to most ppl it is a dead blog and no-one will navigate to my page any longer, but i decided that i really liked having all this info from the past few years--it is like my journal!
Esp things about the kids etc....and this really is the best place that i have for this kind of content...So, and if nothing else i can pull this up one day and maybe read some funny stories to my kids about there antics etc, how cool is that--you know how kids always love to hear stories about them selves...but you always end up drawing a giant blank!! Problem solved.

2009-08-08T19:15:00.001-07:00

Im Pretty sure my blogging days are over!!!!

2009-07-03T22:07:00.000-07:00

Its time to take a BIG deep breath!! and Exhale!!!
We did it!! Our Move is out of the way and i am starting to actually see what the color of my floor is! ta-da!
we have had stuff littered all over the floor!! Yuk!...there were some pretty intense moments...I suffer major psychological disturbance when my life is literally picked up and Dumped out all over the place... the men leave for work, and i am left to put our lives back together, piece by piece box by box...with a very active and demanding toddler and a 7 year old!!
On numerous occasions i was tempted to just pick every thing up and throw it away..or close my eyes and hope it would all vanish!
But alas no such fortune...I am proud to say that there are only about 10 more boxes...down from about 30...and i can see the light at the end of the tunnel!!
and i am determined more than ever not to move again for a few years..which is unfortunate as we are still not in a house...but if i can make it through this year in an apartment...with Lena the way and age she is..then everything else should be a breeze!! its good i will no longer look at what i can get that would be better but i will make do with what i have and try and find ways to make what i have better--( I really am only making sense to myself--since my blog is my diary) but at least i know whats going on.
So here is to moving and staying put!! to Toddlers and tiaras! to stains on the carpets and 'white everything' in my new apartment--that will be 'Black everything' shortly!--here's to a house warming party and to holidays at MY house! since by God im investing so much time and money into it and Ive got to show it off!
and here is to getting a JOB!!
well that about sums it up!!
meet u in Saint Louie!

Vacation!!!!!

2009-06-12T08:40:00.000-07:00

Wooohoooo! Im going to Wasington DC!!! Im so excited it will be my first vacation in Years!!! Ill be flyin out with my brother John..and will get to meet all the rellies..attend my cousins wedding and hopefully get to New York--and Party harty!!!
I cant wait!..Its gonna feel so diffrent going somewhere with out the kids!!

Bleah

2009-05-30T15:34:00.000-07:00

Im soooo not interested in cleaning my house..ha
I am completely disenchanted with the place...Im sure its because we are already gonna be moving...so i have invested nothing in the place...no decor nothing...and my apartment is just full of old crap that i want to get rid of mis matched furniture ancient dirty couch--its horrible and it depresses me!!!
I dont know if anyone has ever been there...the real tough part is i have to stay here for another MONTH!!!
Its also a gray gloomy day.....and the worst news of all...I smashed my car!!!
It was my first accident Yet...my car is not a pretty sight...wait till Rick sees.

Ahem!!!

2009-05-29T21:18:00.000-07:00

So my 7 & year old Son just taught my 19 month old daughter how to say.... Poo-poo!!!
Good God!
there is certainly this "bad influence" now, that i didnt have when he was a baby.
But to be honest it sounded soooo funny hearing her soft little voice carefully forming the words poo-poo..that even I had to laugh!!
were so bad...at least there getting along wonderfully--ha

ang-coo!

2009-05-16T22:09:00.000-07:00

Lena now officially verbalizes the word Thank you!!
Its so cute i just noticed the other day that after i would give her something or if she was particularly happy or excited--(like after I gave in and gave her her "Ice cream" Which by the way she can say very clearly!!!).I would hear this cheery little Ang-coo!
Awwww so cute!

Oh she also LOVES wearing Trevor soccer shin gards...Hence the Photo...m so silly!!!!

Ponderings

2009-05-15T10:45:00.000-07:00

I did not like The Shack!!--There I said it! I know it makes me a bad person. because everyone else Loves it and have found great spiritual awakening with it...now maybe i was reading it too fast as it did none of those things for me...Yes it was a good read. that is not what bothered me. it was intriguing. but ok, this is how I will break it down.
I Believe that this book held Revelatory spiritual concepts for some ppl and with that in mind i can see this being a very awe inspiring book. Whereas i have always had very nontraditional ideas about God and Jesus, etc so that aspect of the book, tho inspiring somewhat did not have a majorly profound impact on me.
I guess the main thing that I found disturbing was that the little girl had been allowed to suffer so terribly. being a mother. and having things like this as top on my list of greatest fears..the lack of an escape per se or the lack of an acknowledgement by the author that some how she was able to withstand whatever torture or blank out or be in another place..Sent chills down my spine!!!
You see. I have always chosen to blindly believe that God is Good Just and fair and that he will with the temptation also make a way of escape!!!
and that he will not suffer you to be tempted above what you are able to bear etc.

I simply HAVE to believe this, there is no other option for me. If I chose not to believe that there is some sort of Magic pill that one is given when faced with extreme pain then my life would would be plunged into a black abyss. and it is truly what keeps me sane and safe in the knowledge of Jesus's love. because why believe at all if when it really came down to the crunch there would be no Mercy and no means of escape..Im not saying that bad things wont happen.i know that they will but i also believe that God is bigger than that. and as a child of God the God of the universe who has Power beyond all.. I have to believe that in his love he would do ALL in his power to sustain me even in the midst of gross darkness, pain or tribulation. As I would do for one of my children!
Maybe the author didn't mean to leave this crucial point out. but i went into the Book searching for this exact thing and no i did not find it to the extent that i needed it reiterated. Yes, there was a mention that Jesus was with her at the time...but no explanation as to how it helped her. And when you are writing a story that is that painful- and you want to inspire ppls faith in God--Then this is a very important piece to not leave out!!
To me the book almost had an Evolutionary element to it..at least in my mind. the idea that things just are the way they are..basic cause and effect...the cycle of life etc..that left very little room for the divine!! for divine intervention, for miracles!!!
Personally I love the stories of Martyrs Singing at there deaths!! feeling no fear, and dying with smiles on there faces. Making me Proud of a God who stands by his faithful ones as they stand up for him!!!!
Another favorite of mine is a book written By Betty J Eade...The author of "Embraced by the Light" She has another book entitled the "Ripple effect" in which she tries to recall some of the conversations she had with the Lord while in heaven.
She has asked the lord some of the same questions i guess that have plagued me. and she was shown a real live example..she was allowed to watch as a little girl on earth was being abused by her father and as the abuse intensified. the little girl was actually removed from her body and spent time playing with Jesus in a beautiful Garden!!!
Now this is the picture I want to have of a God of mercy and of love.And this is who I will willing trust my life and the life of my children with!
Any how. I do apologise to any one who is a major Fan of the Book the Shack, and i meant no disrespect..just trying to Process my own tho ts and Beliefs...and I really am terrible at expressing myself....and this is probably a waay too honest Post for a blog...but I do not have a diary....so hold nothing against me as i humbly try and process deep spiritual things...Hey at least i still think about things. Or better yet if you walked away with something that you know I am obviously not seeing (I am very dense) Please do share...I have a deep craving for an understanding of spiritual things.

Day ,day Go away!!!

2009-05-15T10:12:00.000-07:00

So, I did it again. I should know better by now. But in the throes of itchy eyes weezing and sneezing i Popped my glorius (Non drowsy)claritin pill only to realize to my horror that it was already past 10:00 pm. and even tho the Doctor tells me the nondrowsy medicine should not keep me awake..my body begs to differ!! and not only does it keep me awake it gives me a full on shot of major adrenaline that faaaar surpasses coffee!!!! (hey I should Pop one with my morning brew)
So i am left to "Buzz the whole night through..painfully aware of the ticking clock and every cough weeze and drip from my nose!!

so thats where it has left me this morning with less than 3 hours of sleep under my belt and a full day of home school, chaous, a sick baby and mounds of dishes and laundry...i am holding my second cup of coffee and starring into space, wishing today would be the day "the earth stood still"... frozen in time...so that i would have a chance to slowly catch up!!!

2009-05-08T13:13:00.000-07:00

I feel Like an Old Lady!!!
I finally got my health insurance and went to the Dentist to find out that i have 7 Cavities and a root canal that needs to be worked on!!!!! Yikes,
I knew that i was gonna need some work done as i have very week teeth as it is and Everytime i have a babay it seems like they get Waaay Worse!
But, I wasnt expecting 7plus. I cannot chew at all on one side of my mouth as it is too painful, and the other side is seeing wear and tare. for sure.
Now here is the biggest Problem i am facing is that the lovely government of America with there Horrible health care system will only approve Black metal fillings with the coverage that i have.....Now Metal fillings are full of MERCURY Which is an actual Poision and very bad for you Esp anyone who Is prone to allergy's Of which I fit the bill totally!!! I have tons of allergys....it is also know to cause skin rashes. Which i got last time i got a filling and the only way to get rid of this allergic reaction is to remove what is causing it... ie Your metal filling.Its Crazy they hand you this pamphlet before they give you a filling.they are required by Law to inform you of the side effects of Mercury and they include horrible things like death and deformity to infants if you are Pregnant, brain damage...Etc.
Another thing to note is that in all the other Third world countries that i lived in they have discontinued the use of Mercurey fillings....but here in the good ol USA they would rather save a few bucks even if it means putting ppl in harms way...Whats new Huh?

Soooo the prospect of getting a whole mouthfull of this awful stuff is not apealing in the least!!!!
My other option is to pay out of pocket and i was priced about 240 per filling!!!
and the Root canal is upwards of 1,000$
Any how so i am between a rock and a hard place I am going to see my doctor and they are gonna run allergy test etc and hopefully i will be able to plead my case with my insurance...but untill then i feel like an old lady, as i can hardly chew!!!

Organic!?

2009-05-03T11:41:00.000-07:00

So, I have been giving this a lot of thot recently, and have come to the conclusion that i need to be more aware of the quality of food my kids put in there bodies. mainly in thinking Organic.
My biggest problem tho is i really dont even hardly know what that means. It just seems to be a big Fancy name.We dont eat a lot of processed food, so this is my question..are the the foods that i buy normally considered tainted...If I buy Regular vegetables from the grocery store..are those somehow tainted??
It scares me to think that I can be feeding them what i think is healthy, like meat milk, chicken,Fruits and veggies. but if I dont buy them with an Expensive "Organic Label"that they are ingesting Chemicals and Hormones!!!!

Its kinda a scary thot but maybe I am just not Knowledgeable enough....If there is anyone out there who is, i would greatly appreciate any Information on this....I of course am aware of all the basic health Donts, Like Processed foods, Sugar, Excess sodium etc... But im pretty clueless as to this whole Organic craze..(Its esp confusing when i see "Organic candy"How do you make candy more healthy..but that is another topic)
Its funny cuz growing up we never had access to junk food, of course we hated a lot of the stuff on our plates...But mann was it healthy. and i know that i can attribute alot of my good health to the fact that i did eat very healthily growing up.
I was Watching a TV show the other day, It was talking about these young ppl under the age of 25 that had a lot of health problems. one of which was unexplainable 'Hair loss'. It was really really sad as these were very young PPl and they were literally BALD! Girls and boys alike. One of the boys mum took him to this one specialist who had this weird machine that would basically hold a conversation with the body to find out what the problem was. any how it turns out that the kids Body was like over run with fungus!!! it was every where in his lungs..etc. and it had an out cropping in the form of Athletes foot! and this was the cause of th premature balding!
Any how the cure for this guy was to cut out all alcohol ( He was a College Party boy) Fast foods and to eat Organic!!!!!
Interesting huh?
It got me thinking about the detrimental effects a poor diet can do to a person over a prolonged period of time. and basically made me really want to re examine what my children are putting in there little bodies.I guess it is something that i just have to be more aware of these days...I feel like I'm dodging bullets right and left-ha

2009-04-18T19:30:00.000-07:00

Soccer Mom

2009-04-18T19:12:00.000-07:00

Yes I am Officially a soccer mom! Ha Trev started soccer, and he LOVES it, I thot he would but i didnt think he would like it this much!! You should have seen him out there the first day. I would have thot it would be daunting with over 50 kids,5 Coaches etc. but he was just in his element!!! his face was beaming and I could tell that he loved it!!! Yeah! Here is a little clip of him doing his warm ups!

Easter,Circus and Owies

2009-04-11T14:01:00.000-07:00

Sooo. the Circus Did NOT go well at all!!!!
Lena screamed most of the time and started becoming hysterical!!! so we ended up having to leave at half time which started 20 minutes after the show started....We waited for the show for like half an hour...and we were Freezing!! so when they announced a 15 min intermission after 2 acts we were like Great!
so we just left it sucked Cuz a paid for the whole show! but didnt want lena to be miserable--Oh well what can you do..Trev was so disappointed! its kinda hard when you have an older kid and a baby--but he was sweet about it and understood

We went to the community Easter egg hunt this morning It was Lots of fun!!! they had a pancake breakfast and games and the egg hunt started at 10:30. What was interesting was they didnt put Candy in any of the Eggs, instead they put Coupons I guess different local restaurants donated coupons!!
I thot it was a neat idea...we have some tasty hot--dog, burger and Drink coupons!!

when we got home Trev and I decided to Roast some Marshmallows we got over the 'stove' and i Burned my lip on a hot fork pretty badly!!
I have this big Blister on my lip--OUCH.

Today!

2009-04-10T14:03:00.001-07:00

Today while lena took her nap Trevor and i made a big batch of fruit salad with lots of super yummy fruit! Grapes, melon,Mango etc....our plan was to freeze little baggies for an after school snack, but it was sooo yummy that we basically ate all of it!!!
Oh well,
In other news I am taking the Kids to the circus tonight!!!
we will se how that goes, I will try and take pictures, depending on how tightly Lena is clinging to me you know babies and "New things"

Tomorrow will be another fablous day full of Easter Fun!!!!
I have grown to love my weekends alone with the kids...we aways try and do special things together and its nice to have my Just Mommy and kids Memories....I know i will treasure these times once there gone...I love my Life!!!
Hope everyone has a lovely Easter!!

Number 3 ???

2009-04-10T12:12:00.000-07:00

Soooo, Rick and I decided last night that we want to have one more baby before I turn 30.(Im 28)(The younger you are the easier it is to get back in shape)
And we decided we want to be PG in the winter--ha,(were so weird)

Well we will see--I think it would be the perfect family size and i really want Lena to have a playmate closer to her age...But ooh the work it entails--ha.
I better start working on my Kegals,and stomach muscles,and eating Folic acid!!!

sometimes I wish I could just adopt--and skip the whole pregnancy--sigh!
I probably will do that eventually maybe once all the "Other Kids" are in High school!
I just cant imagine my life with out cute squishy little babies and silly toddlers.:)

Dress Up

2009-04-10T09:32:00.000-07:00

Lena is really into 'dressing up'--she will pick up random clothes and try and put them on, there is one shirt of Trevor's that is one of her favorites, It is a shirt wtih tons of cars on it and she can get it on herself.
The other day she had put his shirt on and found a few other illustrious items and came out to show us...she looked so funny I had to take a picture...she kept adding more items...she was quite a sight to behold.
Trevor and i kept telling her how "Pretty" she was while trying not to bust out laughing!!! she looked hilarious!
I think she was on to us tho as she has her "your teasing me" face on...she is very Sensitive-ha

Some Pics

2009-04-10T09:24:00.001-07:00

Some recent pics...i need to get my camera looked at as it is taking awful pics these days...Probably been drooped too many times:)

the little cook

2009-04-07T12:50:00.000-07:00

I started taking lena to a Early childhood learning center, where they have music and movement classes and a big room where they have tons of toys and age appropiate things like a little nursery with baby dolls, and coking area complete with stoves and dishwashers, microwave play food etc...Tons of stuff!!!
and she LOVES it!!!
the first day we went I dressed her up as a little chef (they have a Dress up corner) and some of the other Mom thot she was soo cute, I didnt have a camera on me so they took some pics and e-maild them to me. There a little small but thats all i have for now
I have tons of other Pics but cant find my camera cord so my blog is gonna be very dry and boring till i do!

My Princess

2009-03-28T23:30:00.000-07:00

Oh Lord have Mercy!!!
I dont know what i am going to do..I am a shopaholic of the worst kind!!!(the kind with no money--heh)
I just dont know how to stop...Not that i really have all that much to spend but whatever i have... i spend.
This is my big dilemma...Ok... So, when I had Trevor I had that experience of suddenly enjoying for the first time shopping for someone other then oneself..so,of course I enjoyed shopping for him, I loved getting him new little outfits and even tho i enjoyed dressing him cute, I was pretty thrifty about it...But now I have a GIRL!!!
A GIRL!! It is like required that a girl look Pretty!! they need stuff. they need their cute shoes and hair stuff. they never can have enough cute things Right?..God!!
It is sooooo much fun its Dizzying...Spring collection..Summer dresses(i am such a sucker for those little dresses)(C'mon Its my first girl) ..But that is where the big problem comes in. I just always want to get her stuff, Ohh just this one cute dress...she really needs it..oh she just has to have some bows and clips and look she doesn't have any shoes to match that outfit...Yeah that's pretty much how it goes...then at the end of the month you are Shocked that you have drizzled away sooo much money.
so here is the thing, i know that some of you can surely relate to this... But i need to find a way to keep my little girl looking like a pretty little girl With out spending so much, I know some of you moms seems to have it down pretty well, I know Maria of Sam, whenever i see her kids they always have really cute little outfits and there hair looks good..soooo what do you do, do you have a specific Budget, do you only allow them to wear certain things at certain times.... do you stock up each season????
I need to find a way to be more Thrifty shopping for kids clothes with out having to shop at a Thrift store....(ok, I will sort of take that back) But I hate faded clothes....and i dont like spending 3 bucks on something that is already faded when i can go to wal-mart and get something for almost the same price New...
Any how if anyone has some tips i would really appreciate that even if your not a Mom..heh.
Oh also if anyone knows of a good 'stain remover' that you can put directly into your wash so you dotn have to spend tons of time going over each piece.

Hooray for me!!!!

2009-03-27T21:31:00.000-07:00

Soooooo, I joined a GYM!!!!
Hooray for me!!--this really is big news, as I have never been one to part with my money for the sake of being "Fit"
I do enjoy a good run,and i actually enjoy exercising, dont get me wrong, but unfortunately Im not one of those real freaks for like body image or putting in the hours to achieve a certain form.
I have always been blissfully comfortable with how I look, and really have been unconcerned with whether I may be 'abounding' or 'abasing' in my figure--it doesnt seem to bother me in the least--heh,
a few laps around the block and i feel fit as a fiddle-heh
The only reason why I finally Broke down and paid for a membership is because i have a very bad right ankle and Knee and it was at the point where I couldnt run at all any more, and one must have at least some exercise in there life right

so now that i have spent all this money on a Gym, I better go to it, Huh?
How's that for Motivation.
There is one thing i hate tho about Gyms.. (actually a few things...)but this is one...
When one (or 2) sweaty beefy guys who are like in the big weight bench area, just sit there scoping ppl out, not doing anything just sitting there staring--ugg,
they should get rid of those benches,
Its like--Pull up,take a seat and watch everyone else work out.

I will dearly miss running out side in the open air, with the sun on my face, and the blue sky, and seeing all the pretty flowers and catching allergies...instead i will be in a stuffy gym breathing others stale air and sweat, holding on to sticky machines and being eyed by strange men in speedos--ha (I am so negative)
oh well, off I go....

One of those days

2009-03-21T15:20:00.000-07:00

Ever have one of those days where your feeling really sick and you put make up on to try and make yourself look better,but end up looking more like a hooker or drag queen....yeah, Im having one of those days.
In other news, I think I spend about 20 bucks a month on Alergy medicine, I feel like i am drugged most of the time. oh well!

2009-03-21T14:46:00.000-07:00

trevor wanted me to post pics of him and I, our faces are all squeezed into the camera so we look funny, but oh well!

Potty

2009-03-21T13:35:00.001-07:00

Warning:
If you are not a Mom you may find this post very disturbing!!

Ok so here is the latest. I bought this "Potty" Video for lena in hopes that she will become interested in the act of Potty training...It is a rather explicit VDO and has a song in it with all these little babies singing and using the potty!!

Great and all, except that she has done nothing to try and use her own potty but she has taken to Insisting on sitting on my lap everytime she sees Me using the potty!(Why you may ask does she see me sitting on the potty? You are not a mom if you wonder this-- but no i never have the privacy of having the door closed as i am still on 'Red Alert' even when on the potty. and if I ever do close the door, my daughter will start screaming to be let in )

Ok back to my story.

so,She will want to climb up on my lap and starts singing her little song as if she is going to the potty too but no she doesnt stop there, she insists that I sing along as well ... So there we are both sitting on the potty--singing!!
Some day my life will be normal again...sigh.

cute kids

2009-03-11T12:23:00.000-07:00

Trevor has never been exteemly Humble, even when he was very little he always thot "Big and Reached High--ha, he is very ambitious and has no qualms picking the biggest and most important thing to emulate...It used to surprise me when he was about three we would do dress up and he would usually choose to be none other than GOD!!!
I swear...i would say who are you and he would casually say..God!
Or we would be doing a skit and he'd say... I'll be God, you be the devil and so and so can be a donkey or something to that effect.

So it didn't surprise me much when i heard him anouncing himself as the "President of the United States"
But the way he said it gave me a good laugh!
He was all.. 'Ladies and Gentlemen' presenting you Trevor Guild! The First "WHITE AFRICAN"
President Ever to be presented of the United states of America!!
Waahahahahahaha!!!!
I thot it was so funny!
Wierd lil Guy

Men's Obsession with campers!!!

2009-03-01T11:59:00.000-08:00

So, What is Men's Obsession with campers???? I really dont get it???
there small and cramped...and take lots of work to maintain!

Or maybe i do...Here's what I think.
I think maybe it has something to do with their non-committal issues...like their last vestige of freedom!!
They can just get in and go anywhere and be "self-sufficient"--huh?
Like the lone wolf!!
They can be Free as the wind....

There you go... I NAILED IT!!!!!!!
Im soooo good at figuring men out (there so easy)

And I bet most men didn't even know that that is why they like Campers so much...well now you do!!!
No Problem..I am happy to help you figure your selves out!
Anytime..

My new Career!!

2009-02-28T22:35:00.000-08:00

Sooo, Rick was laying out this plan for me to join the Air-force!!!
Cuz apparently he always wanted to but now he is too old to enlist--(snicker)
he thinks that I should join while i still have a few young chipper years left in me--heh,
maybe he wants to live vicariously through me???
I guess we will see..Oooo maybe i could be an Air force Janitor!!?

Whale watching!!!

2009-02-23T14:51:00.000-08:00

Well, We had a Whale of a time watching the whales Today!!!
It was fun and a beautiful day! Lena of course wanted to climb over the side of the boat and be in the water.... but aside from that it was a blast!!!
here are some pics....of course it is hard to see the whale--ha..Its funny i have so many mixed feeling about photo taking when you are trying to enjoy an expirience!!
I am super into being in the moment when I am trying to do something cool...esp when it is something like whale watching...your out there for 2hr.s and your all staring at the water hoping to see this phantom whale and finially they yell "there it is"...and it is gone in like 4 seconds and if you have to be all fussing with your camera at the same it really takes away from the "moment".....cuz, like you can look at waaaay better pictures on line any ways.....alrighty thats just my little 2 sense.
Enjoy the lame pictures(except the ones of the ppl)...oh and the little dot you see...yeah..thats the WHALE!!!!

Phone numbers

2009-02-23T14:48:00.000-08:00

Just so ppl know, I lost my Phone and i had to buy a new one....Which means That I dont have ANY numbers.so if anyone feels like e-mailing me thier number or better yet giving me a ring--Catching uo a bit-- I will save the numbers....thanks sooooo Much--Mwah

Wheres the dignity??

2009-02-21T13:03:00.000-08:00

I never could figure this out??
How are you suppossed to go Pee when you are out alone with your kids???
besides squeeze them all in with you?? and if they cant walk or stand--Hold them on your lap???--(Yes i have done that) I know some places have family restrooms but that is like only at the mall and stuff--its pretty rough!!

Lego Land

2009-02-21T12:49:00.000-08:00

We finally made it to lego land and it was a blast--Its trevs favorite place in the world--Ha
Leana prefers the zoo, but had fun as well!
Rick and trevor went to chase thrill rides while i stayed with the baby playing at the playground and going endless times on the little miniture choo-choo!(Lena can say Choo-choo)And seems to like thomas almost as much as trevor did.
Any how it was a great time and a beautiful day. Oh and we scored major!! we found the little lego minifigures!!! I was just as excited as trevor was there were three charachters for 14 dollars--Believe me that is a steel!!!! If any one has ever tried to buy just the figures it is litereally impossible esp at that price--heh

Help!!!--I cant decide!!!

2009-02-19T11:25:00.001-08:00

Ok, so I am at this crossroad and I dont know where to turn???--ha

Soooo...our lease is coming up and we need to decide if we want to stay here in Fallbrook, or if we want to move...I don't really like living in fallbrook cuz in my opinion it is kinda the middle of nowhere, and I like being closer to stuff, so the kids don't have to have this loooong drive wherever they go,I love Temecula, as it is a very nice city very new and Family friendly with everything very conveniently located and relatively good deals on housing etc... on the other hand we have a very good deal on our apartment...it has enough space a washer and dryer and a garage all for a little over 1000,Trevor is in a good school situation, I am comfortable with homeschooling him 2 days out of the week and his teacher does 3.the down side to our apartment is there is Nowhere for the kids to go outside at all, the only outside time they have is when I take them to the parks..
The biggest clincher is I HATE,hate,hate moving!!!
And as much as I love the idea of living in Temecula--(really it would be VERY Ideal)!!
I dont know if I can handle another move--our lease is up in June which is about 4 months away...but there are schools to think about and enrollments start very soon...If any one has an opinion PLEASE,please do share!!!
I am a libra, and I have a very Hard time making descions...
(Ps. Rick is going to an online school so at this point we CAN relocate anywhere, we are not particularly tied down to any one location!
ok peace.)

wedding

2009-02-05T13:14:00.000-08:00

Here are some of my favorite photos from the wedding

KIM

2008-12-27T21:02:00.000-08:00

I don't really know what to say!
I wish that I had said so much more....
and that is an awful feeling.

Never think that you don't have time so say those words or make that phone call or just let ppl know how much you care.
This lesson is huge and one that I hope to take with me into the new year.

Sweet Kim, Was such an amazing person! such a wonderful Mother and Grandmother, not just to her own kids but to everyone..no one was to big or scary to be mothered by her. It was plain to see that she was the glue that held her family, and each one of them was as beautifully devoted to her as she was to them.I have seldom seen such a tight knit family. I cant begin to imagine the devastation you feel right now.
but i know she also has imparted her strength..tho small and frail and almost timid, Kim was strong!!!
Strong in love, strong in faith, strong in devotion!
She will be deeply missed!

I love you.
Jeff,Angie, Julie,Sam,Steph,Marissa and all.. please know that I am upholding you in my desperate prayers.

Ho-ho,ho

2008-12-27T20:46:00.001-08:00

Its amazing how much changes in one week...Soooo my world did come crashing in around me. i knew things were too good to be true,(My negativity has not once failed me in my life!!)
But i was determined to enjoy my C'mas COME WHAT MAY!!!(I love that song)
I had far too much vested in this Christmas! this was one of the first c'mas's in a long time that i was not moving, or giving birth! or engaging the fallout of some major catastrophe in my life!
so i was full steam ahead with c'mas cheer!! I decked the halls, drank Coco,sang carols,Stuffed stockings, made 500 cookies, made gift baskets distributed cookies in the neighbor hood!! along with a from Jesus with love tract and an activated subscription!!! (Go Mommy)
Oh and i individually decorated 20 gingerbread men! I got sooo carried away on this project i had no idea how delightfully fun it would be, once i had decorated about five men in there usual festive outfits i was bored, so i made a hula dancer and a man wearing sunglasses, briefcases and bow ties, fancy shoes and dresses and ribbons in there hair!
I think i know what i want to be when i grow up!--A Ginger bread man decorator!!!

Anyhow I am very proud of myself that i did not let recent developments dampen my joy at c'mas.
and i had a wonderful one--i hope you all did too!
xoxoxox

I love my life!!!

2008-12-22T12:44:00.000-08:00

Its true,
I feel soooo blessed all the time I cant believe that I have such good fortune--i almost feel like i am living in a dream and that something very bad has to happen soon as it almost seems too good to be true..Sure there are difficult moments and i dont really do anything 'special' or out of the ordinary--But i don't care, I almost enjoy just doing simple mundane things...Maybe because my whole life has been kinda crazy and "exciting" well compared to lots of ppl I mean who have never left the state or what have you.
I am at the point where i just want a quiet simple life I enjoy very simple pleasures, Like the smell of fresh laundry and kids sleeping while i fold it, (with a glass of wine).
Or a nice clean kitchen!!, or being with my baby at the park.or having a chat with my son on the couch.
My life is full of these simple pleasures and i am therefore content!!

Oooo and I have c'mas in my bones!! this will be a perfect C'mas for me!!
I am not giving birth or moving!!
I will enjoy and savor every moment of it and i will say a prayer every night for those lest fortunate then me.
And God bless us all everyone.

Stockings?? Bah Humbug??

2008-12-22T12:42:00.000-08:00

Rick shall get COAL in his stocking!!

Christmas Parade

2008-12-14T16:57:00.000-08:00

we went to the fallbrook c'mas parade.
It was fun but lena got really scared of the fire trucks they were honking real loud, and she freaked--we had to leave early.
Her favorate part was seeing the dogs. Of course--here are some pics--most are Trevs photography

OH CHRISTMAS TREE!!

2008-12-14T16:25:00.000-08:00

Sooo, i decided that i would decorate my tree wtih feathers this year!!!
it was a bright idea... i actually got the idea while looking at some very pretty ornaments, that sort of reminded me of a peacock!
then that triggerd the idea to Put feathers on my tree, i was all inspired about it and bought a bunch of black and white feathers, and decided to make my own ornaments. so i started glueing rinestones and putting glitter on the feathers to decorate them and of course i had to glue a little loop on to each feather to hang on the tree, any how a quarter of the way through my lavish project i decided that it was waaaay too much work and i didnt have the time for it. oh well but here is what i managed to come up wtih for my tree. i thot i would document it as the kida have damaged it since. od course the pics are in the middle of the day... it is sooo much prettier with the lights on

birthday pics

2008-12-11T13:52:00.000-08:00

Wow

2008-12-11T13:37:00.000-08:00

Wow!!! I went from a size 36C to a 34-B all in the space of one week!
Crazy!
I just went Bra shopping for like the tenth time this year--what with maternity and nursing and being fat and shrivelling..and found out to my pleasant dismay that i am a 34C that is just one size up from being the smallest possible size you could ever Buy.
But, I am not one to complain, Noooo... Not me! Unlike men, I detest large lumps on my chest and would be a 34C ANY DAY!!!!
Yes that may be strange but I Never wanted bigger boobs--so, hallelujah for righteousness!!

encouraging!

2008-12-08T07:18:00.000-08:00

I was having my word time this morning and was reading Jewels from Him!
this quote really stood out to me and i thot it was so beautiful and encouraging--sometimes I can feel condemed that I am not being like a "flaming evangelist" right now or whatever.
But I do work hard and try and pour into my kids and be a help to whomever I can so this quote really encouraged me!

The number-one priority is and always will be love! To love is our biggest responsibility. If you can go to bed at night knowing that you have shown love and given love—to Jesus and to others—then you can rest, knowing that you've accomplished something truly great!

Sooo sweet huh?
One thing that I have realised over the past few months is that Jesus is soooo sweet and un-condeming!
Condemnation and negativity is an area that i have a weekness in and it is such a trap of the enemy as it automatically shields me from the lords love, i start thinking the lord must not love me so therefore whats the use even trying to be spiritual--etc.
Of course if I even take a minute to think about it i know that nothing coule be further form the truth as the lord has been nothing but totally amazing and wonderful to me heaping on so much--so many blessings so much joy and so much love!!!
I love you Jesus

Out of hibernation

2008-11-21T18:21:00.000-08:00

i cant believe that i found a minute to revisit this Pooooooor Old neglected blog!!!!its not that i dont care--I just seriously dont find the time...Im sure i will soon
I do have lots to post about.
Lena just turned 1 !!!!!
I cant believe it--i still feel like i just had her! And she is TINY!!!
I will try and post some pics soon!!
ok well..
Blog has been revisited!!
till next time

Worthy of mentioning

2008-08-27T14:03:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking Nice thots about ppl lately!!
And figured that instead of just keeping them in my head I would share them--that always a nice thing to do right!

Well first is Jessica!!
She is amazing!! she is homeschooling four kids in 4 age groups!! Her work load is huge (believe me i know how big mine is with one school age kid) much less 4!!
she is with her kids 24/7.it must take the strength of Samson and the grace of...i dont know who. But my hat is off to you girl i dont know how you do it. but i think you are amazing!
Love you!!
the second person that I have been thinking good thots about is Paula!!
She has to great girls..and often mentions that she just has really easy kids.
But the fact of the matter I believe is that they are the way they are because of her phenomenal parenting..her kids are first and foremost!! They dont need to act-up from boredom or what have you, as it seems she always stays one step ahead of them in a plan or activity etc.. It doesnt matter if she is at a party or hanging out with friends her kids will always be seen to. there needs will come first
she is organized planned and prepared!! and an amazing multitask er( a trait that I greatly admire in others as i am horrible multitasking.)
Any how i wish a little bit of her would rub off on me--heh.
oh, and she comes up with so many neat crafts and activities to do!

I also am living with Renee right now. she is so sweet and always ready with a friendly smile a hug or a word of encouragement! she has such great energy!!

Any how love you guys!!

He shall sustain thee

2008-08-27T13:36:00.000-07:00

There is sooooo much to do right now that i cant help but feel overwhelmed at times.
trevor just started school! so there are functions orientations sign ups. plus i am doing 3 homeschool days and man does he have a full work load!
Plus a very high maintenence baby Plus trying to plan a wedding!!!!
and possibly needing to get a second income going which means me working!!
which of course seems like a complete imposibility!! Being as my hands and my plate and my cup are already FULL!!!
Any how i was on the verge of tears this morning after a very frustrating school morning with trev (I am sooo confused about his school I am following a curriculum that i know nothing about and couldnt find half the stuff that he was suppossed to do and the notes to me..his teacher are so complicated its as if i have a masters in public school teaching...words like 'Phonemic analysis' and dibels segmentation... have my head spinning and my eyes crossing and my bright eyed pupil(trevor)
rolling his eyes and begging to play after watching my blank stare yet again while i mumble something about and this is just first grade!! while he patiently awaits his instructions.) Oh dear!
Any how the point of my blog was that i was feeling very overwhelemed and i knew that nothing would really help except rolling it all over onto Jesus!!
which i did ptl and amazingly i feel so much better. isnt it great that we can do that and somehow just know that the lord will take care of it all!!
I love you Jesus!!!
Please help me to cast my burdens on you more so that i can be a sample of peace and faith to my kids not worry and confusion--Yuck!!

2008-07-24T08:27:00.000-07:00

I read this quote this morning and it was soooo encouraging!
Its sooo wonderful that we can always have the lord and the word to turn to!

Life on Earth is a journey. It's going to be difficult sometimes, and you'll get dirty. This is part of the plan, because I made it so. I know that it's impossible for you to not stumble on the rocky road, to not make wrong decisions sometimes, to not get lost along the way, to not get weary or discouraged about the path that you are on, to not question My love for you. But during these moments when things are most difficult, you can rely on the fact that I love you in spite of it all.

Life is about continuing the journey and always knowing that falling is a part of the journey, but that I am proud of you and I love you. You are not a disappointment because you are not perfect, or because you didn't do as well as someone else.

I don't compare you with others or measure your accomplishments against theirs. You stand all on your own when it comes to Me and you. You are My beautiful creation, fashioned as a sculptor would fashion a sculpture. I'm proud of you, My creation. You're beautiful in every way, unique, precious, and a prize in My collection. ("Perfect

Princess

2008-07-21T11:28:00.000-07:00

My princess is soooo pretty!

Survival

2008-07-21T10:56:00.000-07:00

So...I am looking out my window and i am seeing an all too familiar scene! My dearest Rick and one of the kids 'Drying out Apricots'!
The kids seem to love being involved in this process, most likely because of all the fascinating tales that Rick tells about using the apricots as survival in the 'End Time'
Now believe me these 'dried apricots' are nothing like you would imagine getting from a store--which is why i often frown at this little activity. It seems to me that they do nothing more than rot a little and get badly sunburned!!
as the end product is a very dark brown shriveled thing!
but Rick and the kids seem to lap them right up--Rick has assured me that they will taste great in my bowel of "End time Muesli"
So far we have several large bags of brown shriveled apricots in our camper! next to our 2 sacks of beans and our bag of rice! TYJ!--I know i will be one happy camper:P

Well i suppose i shouldn't Knock it as Im sure one of these days while i am frantically running away from the AC himself ducking behind enemy lines...i will reach into my pocket and pull out a little brown bit, tears of gratitude will flow down my face as I hungrily nosh on none other then Ricks dried apricots!!!
TYJ!

2008-07-19T19:48:00.000-07:00

last night i was giving the kids thier bath and Trev was Esp dirty! I was scrubbing crud of his neck, commenting on how filthy he was--To which he exclaims "Mom; thats the ART childhood"
So cute-ha

Dancing!!

2008-07-18T12:33:00.000-07:00

Leana is soooo cute right now. she Loves music and esp the Guitar! she gets Soooo excited and starts dancing and bouncing and shaking her head it is sooo funny and cute! her favorate song right now is 'Thumbelina' (its her 'theme song' Cuz her name is leana and she is very very small-hee,hee) Any how i caught some of her antics on camera--please keep the volume on very very low as we--Of course i am the loudest as i am holding the camera are howling completely out of key-- What we do so that our kids may shine!! Any how be warned! The sound track is not for the faint hearted, but, the baby is sooo cute. xxxx

Moving Again!

2008-07-18T11:55:00.001-07:00

Sooooo, we have moved again....Well just accross the hall actually-ha
so we didnt have to rent a truck or anything!
Any how, I love it!!! I dont know why we didnt do it sooner, we are now in the back two rooms and I feel sooo much better having Trev next door instead of across the hall (I dont know what we were thinking before??)
Its much cozier too! were a little shorter on storage space, but it is definently a "change for the better"
Aside from that we have been doing some fun things!
I know that i never blog--but lets see some of the highlights!
Pabs,Jess and I took the kids to "Movies in the park night" last week! It was a beautiful evening and a great crowd! there was a band playing when we got there,a bunch of oldies! the movie was 'surfs-up' so they played a bunch of beach boy songs!
but the highlight of the evening was the "hot Air balloons"
they Blew three huge hot air balloons up and they would light up evey couple of minutes it was really gorgeous!
a lovely evening all in all-TYJ!
4th of Jully was a fun day too. Rick had to work so it was just me and the kids at home and i figured i had to do at least a tiny something--so early in the afternoon i took the kids to the store and we bought some Poppers (child safe fire works--more like noise makers) I was actually trying to get sparklers! but couldnt find any!

we grilled chicken and had a picnic outside--then we had a water baloon fight!
It was funny as the water baloons only bounced off of us and splashed on the ground
we had got a special movie to watch together and were thinking of watching the fire works on tv, but then we started hearing some noises! so we ran out to the back yard and sure enough we had a great view of the local fire works!!
I was sooo happy as we didnt have to go anywhere and brave the crazy crowds and traffic--we had everything right in our back yard!
Leana loved the "fire works' and the barking Dogs!

I also got to have a fun "girls night" Thanks Nina and Paula! You guys were the bestest hosteses!!
and that pretty much concludes my update!
Ta ta then

Graduation Pictures

2008-06-26T14:05:00.000-07:00

Graduation

2008-06-26T12:59:00.000-07:00

ok, i wasnt able to get that video with my last post will attempt it again here.

Trevors Graduation!

2008-06-25T10:04:00.000-07:00

This was Trevors Graduation day!! It was fun! we were so proud of trevor we had to get up early tho and get to the school as the whole kindergarten class was gonna perform! Unfortunately we were a little bit late.(Baby and all) When we arrived they were all already on stage singing so poor Trevor was very embarrassed to have to walk up there in front of every one to get in line..late.. It definitely dampened his performance and poor boy he looked so nervous and kinda just stumbled through his performance..before he went on stage he was like "you guys always do this to me" (meaning arriving late)Poor boy!! I remember when i used to perform if i made a mistake or was somehow embarrassed it would be so hard for me to concentrate and i would feel out of whack the entire time--any how i thot he did fine but you should have seen him rocking out to these songs before--he really is a good performer and i know in the right circumstances he would have done great!--anyhow... i Will attempt to post a video-clip-the theme was dinosaurs and the song that he is singing on the video clip is called "The dinosaur Blues" its really cute the dinosaur is sad because he wants to play but everyone is scared of him.

Beach Day!!!

2008-06-18T14:40:00.000-07:00

This was Like Lena's first day at the Beach!!
Rick's sister came for a visit..she had been in San Francisco, Getting a new Job as an Air hostess.
it was a fun day, at first lena didnt know what to think of the sand but after a little while she got all into it. and she really liked the waves!! she didnt go in the water... they just tickled her feet!!

Happenings!!!

2008-06-18T13:46:00.000-07:00

I Haven't posted on this blog in soooooo Long its kinda sad...But i have been so busy i really dont even have the time to check my email.
so...it seems the dust is finally settling after our "big Move"

We have been busy getting things all set up and trying to make this "large house" a home--ha
So far it has been nice. It is wonderful to have more space-- compared to how we were all crammed into our one bedroom before... But I do miss Poway! If i could choose somewhere to live of all the places that i have been it would probably be Poway.it was such a sweet little town "the City in the country" It will always hold fond memories for me! Lena was born in Poway. Trevor went to his first school--etc.

In other news..Well im sure its old news by now, but i did finally get my License!!!!

I was soooo happy I hugged the driving instructor! She was very nice and kind..and let me pass, but her last words to me were "Pulease...Be careful out there"

What is a bummer is I knew poway really well and was of course looking forward to driving to all my favorite spots. But, we moved the day after i got my license and I am still very unfamiliar with fall brook. So, I haven't really done much driving-- I really dislike venturing into the unknown!! And I'll tell you what this town is pretty crazy to drive in!... Not to mention, that aside from the 'Glorified Albertsons', you have to get on the high way, and stay on the highway for a good 20 minutes to get to anything--(not a "new driver" with two little kids dream) So pray for me and wish me luck!!
I think i shall just stay at home and leave the driving to the big men!!--ha.

In other, other news. leana now waves and throws her toys!!! yippie!! (For the first--not so yippie for the second.)

Trevor is such a big boy and sleeps all by himself in his own room. He goes to sleep on his own with out any tapes on or lights on! and, wants to door closed!! Such a brave boy.

Well that is some of the few high lights of the last few weeks so much going on so little time to stop and ponder. or write...ok till next year..(OMG I am sooo dyslexic I just typed 'year' completely backwards...like raey..so wierd)
k
bye

Americans Walking-- Finally!!

2008-05-29T19:26:00.000-07:00

Tuesday, I usually take a walk to pick Trevor up from his school and, I noticed A lot more ppl walking!!
I guess that is one upside of higher Gas prices--In fact i may go as far as saying that it may be the BEST thing to happen to some ppl--finally they can work on there health!!! Sure beats sittin behind a wheel!

I thot it was an interesting observation--
turn tragedy into triumph--ha

Laundry Soap only a Man would buy

2008-05-29T19:21:00.001-07:00

Me and Mine: What not to watch

2008-05-12T19:34:00.000-07:00

Me and Mine: What not to watch

So sweet!

2008-05-10T08:08:00.000-07:00

My goodie bag

My card and gift

I recieved the most wonderful surprise today!!
Trevor came home from school with a little bag with carefully glued flowers on it and said that there was a surprise inside for me!!

Inside I found and beautiful Mothers day card very carefully written out by Trevor that said "I love you Mom because you play with me" and a gift..
Now if any one knows trevor..he hates to write and his writing is usually very messy.. but...I have never seen him write as nicely as he did in this card....it was beautiful!!
And, there was a gift of a little picture frame with a flower, made with diffrent colored beans on it. All made by my little boys hands. It was the most wonderful surprise I have ever recieved--Truely. I nearly cried!!

See I have been Trevors teacher for most of his life and the master mind of most of his Art projects, so understandably was never really on the recieving end of something created by him.So this was an extra special treat and something that i will cherish for a long time to come...(I felt like giving his teacher a huge hug! for making this moment possible..how sweet and thotful of her to plan this with the kids for Mothers day--I hope she knows how much it means to us!)

I love being a Mom

2008-05-10T07:44:00.000-07:00

Even with the mostest difficult/complicated baby i have ever met--- The rewards of motherhood far out weigh the difficulty!
I can't imagine my life with out my little ones and almost feel spoiled to have such a perfect little family,I have so much fun with them, My cup is filled to overflowing!!!

Happy "Cinco de Mayo"

2008-05-07T10:41:00.000-07:00

We Had fun last monday "Cinco De Mayo"
Daddy took us to "Old town" which is famous for its cultural history and great mexican food!!!
We had Margaritas, fajitas and Fried Ice cream it was fun the pictures are fuzzy and blurry--But so was I---ha!

What not to watch

2008-05-05T10:19:00.000-07:00

last week I watched two movies, that were soooo painful to watch!!!
"The Kite Runner", and "Good night mister Tom"
I wept for 2 hours after watching Good night mister Tom, and came to the realisation that i absolutely cannot watch movies involving bad things happening to children. I just cannot physically and emotionally handle it.I will say that the blurb on the movie does not prepare you in any way shape or form for some of the scenes in it--I thot it would be a very uplifting movie--ha. So, its not like I purposefully chose to watch something of the sort---Any how--at least some good came out of it and i spent most of the night pouring out my heart to our husband in desperate prayer for all kids around the world who may possibly be experiencing anything of the sort.

Wheeze, cough,itch, sneeze!!!!

2008-04-27T14:41:00.000-07:00

I am experiencing the WORST allergies that i have had in my life!!!
Last night it felt like my whole body had been poisoned. or at least my head my whole scalp and head felt like they were on fire and were soooo itchy.
My eyes were swollen and i felt like I lost a gallon of liquid pouring from my eyes and nose..Ewwww!
and my ears....oh God!
Ok so if any one knows of a cure for these horrible allergies I would be eternally grateful, and if anyone knows of a natural cure that would be swell as i don't like feeling like i am on drugs all day long..Sigh
Frankly my allergy medicine isn't even really working any more...My allergies have Mutated!!!!
Ok enough of that,-- but really this is all i can think of---Achooooo.

Camping and such

2008-04-12T15:55:00.000-07:00

Paula came the other day to visit me!!!
I was sooo happy! Thanks its hard for me to get out and do stuff so that was really special for me
Sorry my house was such a wreck!

In other news we went on our first camping trip since lena came a long.
It was really great! I forgot how much i love camping-there is just something about being completely surrounded by nature its awsome.
But True to our happy family it wasnt with out incident!
we were gonna test out Ricks "new" Motor home, it is a 1970 Itasca i believe and boy is it old!
But of course I had full faith in my man Rick when he told me that it runs like a 'champ', so imagine my surprise when we stalled not once but three times on the highway. I was soo sad and the whole way there i didnt think that we were gonna make it to our spot!
But Rick and our MH refused to give up and he trucked that thing all the way up to Julian! much to the dismay of some of the cars behind us who were forced to keep a steady 30-MPH
Well, I was very thankful for that ol motor home as that night it was FREEZING, we had actually planned to camp in Julian but they didnt hacve any motor home hook ups, so we drove down a bit and found a site for RVs and it was right on lake Quyamaca, it was soooo beautiful!!! Pine trees and a beautiful lake. There were these big huge birds by the lake, lots of Ducks and tons of fish the ranger told us that they had overstocked, so you could see the fish jumping! (we didnt bring our fishing poles tho sigh,)
Any way, the next morning it was sunny and so beautiful i woke up early sat outside with my coffe and just soaked in the beauty, I felt like a New Person!!
and definently want to do it again soon!
Here are some pics of us Crazy Crusaders:)

2008-04-06T20:22:00.000-07:00

A Mother is someone who when seeing there are only 4 pieces of pie for five People, Promptly declares "i never did care for pie anyway--Tenneva Jordan

Tip

2008-04-06T12:51:00.000-07:00

WARNING!!! Extremely Trivial Post

This is a tip for moms who are not sleeping through the night yet, and are experiencing...among other things, dark circles around there eyes...
when applying your make up, after the usual foundation, put a little bit of neutral or very light coloured shimmer on the insides(where your nose is..but not on your nose heh)and lower crease of your eyes, and apparently the sun bounces off of it and helps to lighten up that whole area reducing the appearance of dark circles....Super neato..huh?
Also this is just a personal tip, but if you are looking for a really good body moisturizer....the new "Olay body quench" is amazing!!!!I have always had a hard time finding a good moisturizer, but I bought this one (it is on sale right now at Wally for like 4.75) and i was amazed at how well it worked!!
It is supposed to last for like 24 hours. i put it on before bed and the next morning my skin was soooo soft.
I know like i probably sound like a weirdo, but if any one else has had the same problem this is a really good one for cheap!!

Bloggin n' my Noggin!!!!

2008-04-04T16:40:00.000-07:00

I Blog.... in my Head.
heh.
Its true tho. So many thots go through my head all day long and i will actually think 'Wow' this will make a great post...im gonna Blog about such and such, and i will even start forming a really cool post in my head!!!
but-alas-seldom does it come to fruition... but at least i blog in my head--thats gotta count for something right?

Insights

2008-03-30T09:44:00.000-07:00

Its amazing to me how very different kids can be from one another, I know i have heard that by other moms in the past, But never found out how true it was till Trevors little sister came along.

They have very different personalities, Trevor was very dependent and attached to his mommy, very cuddly and sweet, loved my attention and coddling.
Lena couldn't be more opposite, she is very independent and seems to want her own space and to explore life on her own terms with out much intervening from me.
she is very 'un-cuddly' and is always like arching her back or is stiff as a bored.
sometimes it is difficult for me as i am a Very nurturing person and i love to cuddle and coddle my little ones, yet she is always pushing me away...ha.
she seems so tough, and like she can take on the world even tho she is only 4 mos old, its really funny she is like this "stoic" little thing.

She does have one very endearing little quality tho,and it is her little secret, so i have to pretend that Im not really on to her, and that is that she always wants to hold my hand. So sweet huh, she holds on so tight and always seems comforted by this little gesture. When she is fussy at night she does not want to be held close and comforted, but the minute i offer her my finger she holds on so tight and if I stroke and kiss her little hand she gets all content and happy and calms right down. Isn't that funny, well I'm really glad that there is at least something that i can do to help..ha
It really is amazing discovering your children and figuring out all the little neat things about thier personality and learning to adapt your self to there needs.

I love you my little bean.xxxx

Talk To me--like lovers do

2008-03-29T17:59:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday My Love!!

2008-03-27T09:04:00.000-07:00

TO TREVOR, FROM MOMMY

I love you so much my sweet boy!
I am so proud of you! You have been through so much in the short 5 years you have been around Yet you have been so Brave and bounced back so easily,

I love your strength of spirit
I love how loyal you are, and how you would never let any one hurt the ones you love
I love your Zest for life.
I love the tender little heart you have.
I love how you are a courageous "super hero" who can take on the world
I love how you are always crashing into things.(Not really, but it is funny it reminds me of what a corageous, reckless boy your are, and no mater how many times you take a spill it still never stops you from doing those crazy things)
I love how you love your baby sister
I love how you get embarrased and try and cover your smile with your hand

I loved you the Moment that I laid eyes on you, and you will always have my heart wrapped tightly around yours.(and you will probably have me wrapped around your finger, when I look into your sparkly little green eyes, see your cheeky little smile and watch you throw your head back with your silly-yet heart felt laugh!)
You are the light of my life and I am sooo proud of you!
I thank Jesus every day for you.
I hope and pray that this year will be the best one yet for you.
With all the love in my heart,

Mommy

Eeewwwwwww

2008-03-15T15:56:00.000-07:00

I was watching this story on the news the other day, It was quite disturbing!
I'm not sure if i understood everything correctly, but it was talking about how ppl take prescription drugs and the way they are made they don't entirely break down in your body so a lot of it comes out in your waste...now apparently everything gets recycled or something and they are saying that there is a big concern because our drinking water is starting to have a big "cocktail" of different kinds of drugs in it, and they dont really know how to properly filter it and are saying that most filters are not equipped to really be able to clear this stuff out... they said of course filtering it helps some...but apparently doesn't get it all out--Gross huh!
I used to drink from the tap quite freely but every time i take a drink from the tap i think of that story...now I'm kinda paranoid...its pretty gross!

baby update

2008-03-14T22:44:00.000-07:00

My just turned(Like as of yesterday) 4 month old baby is cutting teeth!!!!
Its crazy it seems really early, and she like really wants to teeth on stuff but she doesnt really have the hand coordination to get her fingers or a teething ring into her mouth...poor baby, she gets really frustrated. she also has taken to using my nipples as her chew toy..ouch!!!!

Fashion--For Mom's

2008-03-14T22:11:00.000-07:00

Ok, Now I know that"Fashion" Is probably on the waaaaaay back burner of most ppls minds(it is mine) but after looking in the mirror a couple times today and seeing the frumpy hair tied in a knot, the pants that are Pregnancy size,and the spit up all over my shirt, I decided that maybe it is time to at least try and pay a little bit of attention to how i look.
Now, any one who has kids will be the first to tell me that finding something to wear that is functional with kids, and stylish is a huge feat!!!
I actually stumbled across this list and thot that it was great!
but any how, that was my little fasion moment--of course i know that I just had a baby and Im not expecting to look like a super model, but I know I can definitely stand to improve.
Esp in light of the recent council in the word-- I can say for a fact that man definitely judges by the outward appearance...and often in the back of my mind i have a feeling that ppl are thinking "white trash Mom"--heh! sounds bad..I know.
any how here is the list of functional clothes that a designer needs to make.

It is infinitely difficult to merge fashion with child-rearing clothes. Here are my ideal criteria for this fashion black hole.

Moms NEED:

1) Sweaters that don't pill or get stretched out from holding children all day. That rules out wool and cotton, so a cotton-silk blend might work here.

2) Sets of tops that coordinate so you can strip down in a hot park and put something back on when it gets cooler. This might be specific to California's micro-climates.

3) Tops that are fitted, but not too clingy and don't have boob-baring necklines when you bend over for the 100th time to pick your child up at the park.

4) No white, ever.

5) Something with clean, modern lines that fits better than Banana Republic.

6) Fabrics and cuts that are machine-washable and that last and last, since, let's face it, when you get a good outfit going you want to wear it again and again just to skip the whole, "what shirt should I wear with these pants" thing each day.

7) Finally, style that doesn't scream "too style-ey" at the park but wouldn't call you out as a dumpy mom if you get the chance to go to dinner after putting the kids to bed.

Can a clothing manufacturer PLEASE read these criteria and get us some better child-rearing clothes!?

Tooth Fairy!

2008-03-06T19:05:00.000-08:00

Im a Tooth Fairy!!!
Shhhhh... pulease dont tell Trevor!
Yes his tooth finally came out with a gentle little tug from Mommy (Tip: Grab a piece of clean tissue, it grips really good and give a little tug! Of course you dont want to do it until that tooth is really good and wiggly.)
Any how he was sooooo excited and i was really happy to share the moment with him.he chattered and talked and hugged me, then hugged me again
I wasnt so happy about spending 12 bucks on the toy that he painstakingly wrote a list to the Tooth Fairy for!!! (well, it was only suppossed to be 5$ but like always they didnt have the toy in the cheap version! only the expensive one-ahem)

Ah, well, it was fun all in all-- a good first time experience. And hey he says that he will be happy with 'stickers' next time (well, (In his words) "Magical stickers" that make dreams come true!!!!
Sooo sweet! I love my little man.

Obsession??

2008-03-04T14:36:00.000-08:00

Geez i totally forgot that i had a blog--heh!
I have been recently quite obsessed with a little thing called "Craigs List" It is such a great place. Its like window shopping-heh.

Of toofers and such!

2008-02-26T15:11:00.000-08:00

I'm giddy with excitement!!! Trevor has a wiggly tooth! And it is the same wittle tooth that popped in five and a half years ago.and crowned his little gummy smile!

Its just too cool like coming through a cycle--this has to be the first sign of many that my son is growing up! I feel happy and Nostalgic at the same time.

My pretty little Princess

2008-02-21T10:00:00.001-08:00

Healthy and Spiritual

2008-02-20T13:33:00.000-08:00

The other day Trevor was trying to convince me to let him play on the computer,
He's like "Mom" I promise i will only play games that are "Healthy and Spiritual"

Ha, I guess he figured that those would be big 'selling points' to me

In other news it was wonderful to be able to see so many of you at the F b'day party. It seems like we were only there a short time and i barely made my rounds to see and talk to everyone--sorry love you and miss you.

I will Post

2008-02-17T08:32:00.000-08:00

I promise that I will try nd post more faithfully--not that any one cares!! but hey i guess it is my fault that no one comments.
Ok....

I've Been Sick!!!

2008-02-11T22:33:00.000-08:00

But i'm not teeny and tiny like the little mouse....you know the "Joke" about the Elephant and the mouse.....yeah-ok....anyhoo.
Yeah we have been sick Trev is pretty sick right now pray for him!!
I am listening to some quack right now on some talk show,,I mean he has a few good points, but some of his stuff man just seems like waaaay off.
Well He claims that he is gonna be one of the last witneses--you know The "Other one"
and some other stuff of his is pretty wack the main thing that bothers me is taht he is sooo darn sure of himself! Just a little too cocky for me.
but he is saying that things are gonna start in February and really Heat up by april of 2008--Geez! Oh and Jesus is gonna come back in 2011!!

To be honest i realy do HATE thinking about the 'Endtime' i think i need to hear from the lord about how to get over it, but im hearing about it more and more all over the place,and i really just want it to stop! LHM but it is not exciting or fun in my mind in fact it is the total opposite! sometimes i just wish i could just live to be this little Old lady in some peaceful cottage and live out my old age in peace and quiet!
well i suppose i chose this path some how and I guess in theory i believe that the lord has given me all that i need to come through this time victorious!-PTL i think i will just change the subject now --heh.

So who wants a late night snack??? Not Quack--ok im going to bed!
Love you guys all xxxxoooxxx

2008-01-30T17:58:00.000-08:00

My little Pumkins Foolin' around
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