Im soooo not interested in cleaning my house..ha
I am completely disenchanted with the place...Im sure its because we are already gonna be moving...so i have invested nothing in the place...no decor nothing...and my apartment is just full of old crap that i want to get rid of mis matched furniture ancient dirty couch--its horrible and it depresses me!!!
I dont know if anyone has ever been there...the real tough part is i have to stay here for another MONTH!!!
Its also a gray gloomy day.....and the worst news of all...I smashed my car!!!
It was my first accident Yet...my car is not a pretty sight...wait till Rick sees.
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
Ahem!!!
So my 7 & year old Son just taught my 19 month old daughter how to say.... Poo-poo!!!
Good God!
there is certainly this "bad influence" now, that i didnt have when he was a baby.
But to be honest it sounded soooo funny hearing her soft little voice carefully forming the words poo-poo..that even I had to laugh!!
were so bad...at least there getting along wonderfully--ha
Good God!
there is certainly this "bad influence" now, that i didnt have when he was a baby.
But to be honest it sounded soooo funny hearing her soft little voice carefully forming the words poo-poo..that even I had to laugh!!
were so bad...at least there getting along wonderfully--ha
Saturday, May 16, 2009
ang-coo!
Lena now officially verbalizes the word Thank you!!
Its so cute i just noticed the other day that after i would give her something or if she was particularly happy or excited--(like after I gave in and gave her her "Ice cream" Which by the way she can say very clearly!!!).I would hear this cheery little Ang-coo!
Awwww so cute!
Oh she also LOVES wearing Trevor soccer shin gards...Hence the Photo...m so silly!!!!
Friday, May 15, 2009
Ponderings
I did not like The Shack!!--There I said it! I know it makes me a bad person. because everyone else Loves it and have found great spiritual awakening with it...now maybe i was reading it too fast as it did none of those things for me...Yes it was a good read. that is not what bothered me. it was intriguing. but ok, this is how I will break it down.
I Believe that this book held Revelatory spiritual concepts for some ppl and with that in mind i can see this being a very awe inspiring book. Whereas i have always had very nontraditional ideas about God and Jesus, etc so that aspect of the book, tho inspiring somewhat did not have a majorly profound impact on me.
I guess the main thing that I found disturbing was that the little girl had been allowed to suffer so terribly. being a mother. and having things like this as top on my list of greatest fears..the lack of an escape per se or the lack of an acknowledgement by the author that some how she was able to withstand whatever torture or blank out or be in another place..Sent chills down my spine!!!
You see. I have always chosen to blindly believe that God is Good Just and fair and that he will with the temptation also make a way of escape!!!
and that he will not suffer you to be tempted above what you are able to bear etc.
I simply HAVE to believe this, there is no other option for me. If I chose not to believe that there is some sort of Magic pill that one is given when faced with extreme pain then my life would would be plunged into a black abyss. and it is truly what keeps me sane and safe in the knowledge of Jesus's love. because why believe at all if when it really came down to the crunch there would be no Mercy and no means of escape..Im not saying that bad things wont happen.i know that they will but i also believe that God is bigger than that. and as a child of God the God of the universe who has Power beyond all.. I have to believe that in his love he would do ALL in his power to sustain me even in the midst of gross darkness, pain or tribulation. As I would do for one of my children!
Maybe the author didn't mean to leave this crucial point out. but i went into the Book searching for this exact thing and no i did not find it to the extent that i needed it reiterated. Yes, there was a mention that Jesus was with her at the time...but no explanation as to how it helped her. And when you are writing a story that is that painful- and you want to inspire ppls faith in God--Then this is a very important piece to not leave out!!
To me the book almost had an Evolutionary element to it..at least in my mind. the idea that things just are the way they are..basic cause and effect...the cycle of life etc..that left very little room for the divine!! for divine intervention, for miracles!!!
Personally I love the stories of Martyrs Singing at there deaths!! feeling no fear, and dying with smiles on there faces. Making me Proud of a God who stands by his faithful ones as they stand up for him!!!!
Another favorite of mine is a book written By Betty J Eade...The author of "Embraced by the Light" She has another book entitled the "Ripple effect" in which she tries to recall some of the conversations she had with the Lord while in heaven.
She has asked the lord some of the same questions i guess that have plagued me. and she was shown a real live example..she was allowed to watch as a little girl on earth was being abused by her father and as the abuse intensified. the little girl was actually removed from her body and spent time playing with Jesus in a beautiful Garden!!!
Now this is the picture I want to have of a God of mercy and of love.And this is who I will willing trust my life and the life of my children with!
Any how. I do apologise to any one who is a major Fan of the Book the Shack, and i meant no disrespect..just trying to Process my own tho ts and Beliefs...and I really am terrible at expressing myself....and this is probably a waay too honest Post for a blog...but I do not have a diary....so hold nothing against me as i humbly try and process deep spiritual things...Hey at least i still think about things. Or better yet if you walked away with something that you know I am obviously not seeing (I am very dense) Please do share...I have a deep craving for an understanding of spiritual things.
I Believe that this book held Revelatory spiritual concepts for some ppl and with that in mind i can see this being a very awe inspiring book. Whereas i have always had very nontraditional ideas about God and Jesus, etc so that aspect of the book, tho inspiring somewhat did not have a majorly profound impact on me.
I guess the main thing that I found disturbing was that the little girl had been allowed to suffer so terribly. being a mother. and having things like this as top on my list of greatest fears..the lack of an escape per se or the lack of an acknowledgement by the author that some how she was able to withstand whatever torture or blank out or be in another place..Sent chills down my spine!!!
You see. I have always chosen to blindly believe that God is Good Just and fair and that he will with the temptation also make a way of escape!!!
and that he will not suffer you to be tempted above what you are able to bear etc.
I simply HAVE to believe this, there is no other option for me. If I chose not to believe that there is some sort of Magic pill that one is given when faced with extreme pain then my life would would be plunged into a black abyss. and it is truly what keeps me sane and safe in the knowledge of Jesus's love. because why believe at all if when it really came down to the crunch there would be no Mercy and no means of escape..Im not saying that bad things wont happen.i know that they will but i also believe that God is bigger than that. and as a child of God the God of the universe who has Power beyond all.. I have to believe that in his love he would do ALL in his power to sustain me even in the midst of gross darkness, pain or tribulation. As I would do for one of my children!
Maybe the author didn't mean to leave this crucial point out. but i went into the Book searching for this exact thing and no i did not find it to the extent that i needed it reiterated. Yes, there was a mention that Jesus was with her at the time...but no explanation as to how it helped her. And when you are writing a story that is that painful- and you want to inspire ppls faith in God--Then this is a very important piece to not leave out!!
To me the book almost had an Evolutionary element to it..at least in my mind. the idea that things just are the way they are..basic cause and effect...the cycle of life etc..that left very little room for the divine!! for divine intervention, for miracles!!!
Personally I love the stories of Martyrs Singing at there deaths!! feeling no fear, and dying with smiles on there faces. Making me Proud of a God who stands by his faithful ones as they stand up for him!!!!
Another favorite of mine is a book written By Betty J Eade...The author of "Embraced by the Light" She has another book entitled the "Ripple effect" in which she tries to recall some of the conversations she had with the Lord while in heaven.
She has asked the lord some of the same questions i guess that have plagued me. and she was shown a real live example..she was allowed to watch as a little girl on earth was being abused by her father and as the abuse intensified. the little girl was actually removed from her body and spent time playing with Jesus in a beautiful Garden!!!
Now this is the picture I want to have of a God of mercy and of love.And this is who I will willing trust my life and the life of my children with!
Any how. I do apologise to any one who is a major Fan of the Book the Shack, and i meant no disrespect..just trying to Process my own tho ts and Beliefs...and I really am terrible at expressing myself....and this is probably a waay too honest Post for a blog...but I do not have a diary....so hold nothing against me as i humbly try and process deep spiritual things...Hey at least i still think about things. Or better yet if you walked away with something that you know I am obviously not seeing (I am very dense) Please do share...I have a deep craving for an understanding of spiritual things.
Day ,day Go away!!!
So, I did it again. I should know better by now. But in the throes of itchy eyes weezing and sneezing i Popped my glorius (Non drowsy)claritin pill only to realize to my horror that it was already past 10:00 pm. and even tho the Doctor tells me the nondrowsy medicine should not keep me awake..my body begs to differ!! and not only does it keep me awake it gives me a full on shot of major adrenaline that faaaar surpasses coffee!!!! (hey I should Pop one with my morning brew)
So i am left to "Buzz the whole night through..painfully aware of the ticking clock and every cough weeze and drip from my nose!!
so thats where it has left me this morning with less than 3 hours of sleep under my belt and a full day of home school, chaous, a sick baby and mounds of dishes and laundry...i am holding my second cup of coffee and starring into space, wishing today would be the day "the earth stood still"... frozen in time...so that i would have a chance to slowly catch up!!!
So i am left to "Buzz the whole night through..painfully aware of the ticking clock and every cough weeze and drip from my nose!!
so thats where it has left me this morning with less than 3 hours of sleep under my belt and a full day of home school, chaous, a sick baby and mounds of dishes and laundry...i am holding my second cup of coffee and starring into space, wishing today would be the day "the earth stood still"... frozen in time...so that i would have a chance to slowly catch up!!!
Friday, May 08, 2009
I feel Like an Old Lady!!!
I finally got my health insurance and went to the Dentist to find out that i have 7 Cavities and a root canal that needs to be worked on!!!!! Yikes,
I knew that i was gonna need some work done as i have very week teeth as it is and Everytime i have a babay it seems like they get Waaay Worse!
But, I wasnt expecting 7plus. I cannot chew at all on one side of my mouth as it is too painful, and the other side is seeing wear and tare. for sure.
Now here is the biggest Problem i am facing is that the lovely government of America with there Horrible health care system will only approve Black metal fillings with the coverage that i have.....Now Metal fillings are full of MERCURY Which is an actual Poision and very bad for you Esp anyone who Is prone to allergy's Of which I fit the bill totally!!! I have tons of allergys....it is also know to cause skin rashes. Which i got last time i got a filling and the only way to get rid of this allergic reaction is to remove what is causing it... ie Your metal filling.Its Crazy they hand you this pamphlet before they give you a filling.they are required by Law to inform you of the side effects of Mercury and they include horrible things like death and deformity to infants if you are Pregnant, brain damage...Etc.
Another thing to note is that in all the other Third world countries that i lived in they have discontinued the use of Mercurey fillings....but here in the good ol USA they would rather save a few bucks even if it means putting ppl in harms way...Whats new Huh?
Soooo the prospect of getting a whole mouthfull of this awful stuff is not apealing in the least!!!!
My other option is to pay out of pocket and i was priced about 240 per filling!!!
and the Root canal is upwards of 1,000$
Any how so i am between a rock and a hard place I am going to see my doctor and they are gonna run allergy test etc and hopefully i will be able to plead my case with my insurance...but untill then i feel like an old lady, as i can hardly chew!!!
I finally got my health insurance and went to the Dentist to find out that i have 7 Cavities and a root canal that needs to be worked on!!!!! Yikes,
I knew that i was gonna need some work done as i have very week teeth as it is and Everytime i have a babay it seems like they get Waaay Worse!
But, I wasnt expecting 7plus. I cannot chew at all on one side of my mouth as it is too painful, and the other side is seeing wear and tare. for sure.
Now here is the biggest Problem i am facing is that the lovely government of America with there Horrible health care system will only approve Black metal fillings with the coverage that i have.....Now Metal fillings are full of MERCURY Which is an actual Poision and very bad for you Esp anyone who Is prone to allergy's Of which I fit the bill totally!!! I have tons of allergys....it is also know to cause skin rashes. Which i got last time i got a filling and the only way to get rid of this allergic reaction is to remove what is causing it... ie Your metal filling.Its Crazy they hand you this pamphlet before they give you a filling.they are required by Law to inform you of the side effects of Mercury and they include horrible things like death and deformity to infants if you are Pregnant, brain damage...Etc.
Another thing to note is that in all the other Third world countries that i lived in they have discontinued the use of Mercurey fillings....but here in the good ol USA they would rather save a few bucks even if it means putting ppl in harms way...Whats new Huh?
Soooo the prospect of getting a whole mouthfull of this awful stuff is not apealing in the least!!!!
My other option is to pay out of pocket and i was priced about 240 per filling!!!
and the Root canal is upwards of 1,000$
Any how so i am between a rock and a hard place I am going to see my doctor and they are gonna run allergy test etc and hopefully i will be able to plead my case with my insurance...but untill then i feel like an old lady, as i can hardly chew!!!
Sunday, May 03, 2009
Organic!?
So, I have been giving this a lot of thot recently, and have come to the conclusion that i need to be more aware of the quality of food my kids put in there bodies. mainly in thinking Organic.
My biggest problem tho is i really dont even hardly know what that means. It just seems to be a big Fancy name.We dont eat a lot of processed food, so this is my question..are the the foods that i buy normally considered tainted...If I buy Regular vegetables from the grocery store..are those somehow tainted??
It scares me to think that I can be feeding them what i think is healthy, like meat milk, chicken,Fruits and veggies. but if I dont buy them with an Expensive "Organic Label"that they are ingesting Chemicals and Hormones!!!!
Its kinda a scary thot but maybe I am just not Knowledgeable enough....If there is anyone out there who is, i would greatly appreciate any Information on this....I of course am aware of all the basic health Donts, Like Processed foods, Sugar, Excess sodium etc... But im pretty clueless as to this whole Organic craze..(Its esp confusing when i see "Organic candy"How do you make candy more healthy..but that is another topic)
Its funny cuz growing up we never had access to junk food, of course we hated a lot of the stuff on our plates...But mann was it healthy. and i know that i can attribute alot of my good health to the fact that i did eat very healthily growing up.
I was Watching a TV show the other day, It was talking about these young ppl under the age of 25 that had a lot of health problems. one of which was unexplainable 'Hair loss'. It was really really sad as these were very young PPl and they were literally BALD! Girls and boys alike. One of the boys mum took him to this one specialist who had this weird machine that would basically hold a conversation with the body to find out what the problem was. any how it turns out that the kids Body was like over run with fungus!!! it was every where in his lungs..etc. and it had an out cropping in the form of Athletes foot! and this was the cause of th premature balding!
Any how the cure for this guy was to cut out all alcohol ( He was a College Party boy) Fast foods and to eat Organic!!!!!
Interesting huh?
It got me thinking about the detrimental effects a poor diet can do to a person over a prolonged period of time. and basically made me really want to re examine what my children are putting in there little bodies.I guess it is something that i just have to be more aware of these days...I feel like I'm dodging bullets right and left-ha
My biggest problem tho is i really dont even hardly know what that means. It just seems to be a big Fancy name.We dont eat a lot of processed food, so this is my question..are the the foods that i buy normally considered tainted...If I buy Regular vegetables from the grocery store..are those somehow tainted??
It scares me to think that I can be feeding them what i think is healthy, like meat milk, chicken,Fruits and veggies. but if I dont buy them with an Expensive "Organic Label"that they are ingesting Chemicals and Hormones!!!!
Its kinda a scary thot but maybe I am just not Knowledgeable enough....If there is anyone out there who is, i would greatly appreciate any Information on this....I of course am aware of all the basic health Donts, Like Processed foods, Sugar, Excess sodium etc... But im pretty clueless as to this whole Organic craze..(Its esp confusing when i see "Organic candy"How do you make candy more healthy..but that is another topic)
Its funny cuz growing up we never had access to junk food, of course we hated a lot of the stuff on our plates...But mann was it healthy. and i know that i can attribute alot of my good health to the fact that i did eat very healthily growing up.
I was Watching a TV show the other day, It was talking about these young ppl under the age of 25 that had a lot of health problems. one of which was unexplainable 'Hair loss'. It was really really sad as these were very young PPl and they were literally BALD! Girls and boys alike. One of the boys mum took him to this one specialist who had this weird machine that would basically hold a conversation with the body to find out what the problem was. any how it turns out that the kids Body was like over run with fungus!!! it was every where in his lungs..etc. and it had an out cropping in the form of Athletes foot! and this was the cause of th premature balding!
Any how the cure for this guy was to cut out all alcohol ( He was a College Party boy) Fast foods and to eat Organic!!!!!
Interesting huh?
It got me thinking about the detrimental effects a poor diet can do to a person over a prolonged period of time. and basically made me really want to re examine what my children are putting in there little bodies.I guess it is something that i just have to be more aware of these days...I feel like I'm dodging bullets right and left-ha
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