Ponderings

I did not like The Shack!!--There I said it! I know it makes me a bad person. because everyone else Loves it and have found great spiritual awakening with it...now maybe i was reading it too fast as it did none of those things for me...Yes it was a good read. that is not what bothered me. it was intriguing. but ok, this is how I will break it down.
I Believe that this book held Revelatory spiritual concepts for some ppl and with that in mind i can see this being a very awe inspiring book. Whereas i have always had very nontraditional ideas about God and Jesus, etc so that aspect of the book, tho inspiring somewhat did not have a majorly profound impact on me.
I guess the main thing that I found disturbing was that the little girl had been allowed to suffer so terribly. being a mother. and having things like this as top on my list of greatest fears..the lack of an escape per se or the lack of an acknowledgement by the author that some how she was able to withstand whatever torture or blank out or be in another place..Sent chills down my spine!!!
You see. I have always chosen to blindly believe that God is Good Just and fair and that he will with the temptation also make a way of escape!!!
and that he will not suffer you to be tempted above what you are able to bear etc.

I simply HAVE to believe this, there is no other option for me. If I chose not to believe that there is some sort of Magic pill that one is given when faced with extreme pain then my life would would be plunged into a black abyss. and it is truly what keeps me sane and safe in the knowledge of Jesus's love. because why believe at all if when it really came down to the crunch there would be no Mercy and no means of escape..Im not saying that bad things wont happen.i know that they will but i also believe that God is bigger than that. and as a child of God the God of the universe who has Power beyond all.. I have to believe that in his love he would do ALL in his power to sustain me even in the midst of gross darkness, pain or tribulation. As I would do for one of my children!
Maybe the author didn't mean to leave this crucial point out. but i went into the Book searching for this exact thing and no i did not find it to the extent that i needed it reiterated. Yes, there was a mention that Jesus was with her at the time...but no explanation as to how it helped her. And when you are writing a story that is that painful- and you want to inspire ppls faith in God--Then this is a very important piece to not leave out!!
To me the book almost had an Evolutionary element to it..at least in my mind. the idea that things just are the way they are..basic cause and effect...the cycle of life etc..that left very little room for the divine!! for divine intervention, for miracles!!!
Personally I love the stories of Martyrs Singing at there deaths!! feeling no fear, and dying with smiles on there faces. Making me Proud of a God who stands by his faithful ones as they stand up for him!!!!
Another favorite of mine is a book written By Betty J Eade...The author of "Embraced by the Light" She has another book entitled the "Ripple effect" in which she tries to recall some of the conversations she had with the Lord while in heaven.
She has asked the lord some of the same questions i guess that have plagued me. and she was shown a real live example..she was allowed to watch as a little girl on earth was being abused by her father and as the abuse intensified. the little girl was actually removed from her body and spent time playing with Jesus in a beautiful Garden!!!
Now this is the picture I want to have of a God of mercy and of love.And this is who I will willing trust my life and the life of my children with!
Any how. I do apologise to any one who is a major Fan of the Book the Shack, and i meant no disrespect..just trying to Process my own tho ts and Beliefs...and I really am terrible at expressing myself....and this is probably a waay too honest Post for a blog...but I do not have a diary....so hold nothing against me as i humbly try and process deep spiritual things...Hey at least i still think about things. Or better yet if you walked away with something that you know I am obviously not seeing (I am very dense) Please do share...I have a deep craving for an understanding of spiritual things.