KIM

I don't really know what to say!
I wish that I had said so much more....
and that is an awful feeling.

Never think that you don't have time so say those words or make that phone call or just let ppl know how much you care.
This lesson is huge and one that I hope to take with me into the new year.

Sweet Kim, Was such an amazing person! such a wonderful Mother and Grandmother, not just to her own kids but to everyone..no one was to big or scary to be mothered by her. It was plain to see that she was the glue that held her family, and each one of them was as beautifully devoted to her as she was to them.I have seldom seen such a tight knit family. I cant begin to imagine the devastation you feel right now.
but i know she also has imparted her strength..tho small and frail and almost timid, Kim was strong!!!
Strong in love, strong in faith, strong in devotion!
She will be deeply missed!

I love you.
Jeff,Angie, Julie,Sam,Steph,Marissa and all.. please know that I am upholding you in my desperate prayers.

Ho-ho,ho

Its amazing how much changes in one week...Soooo my world did come crashing in around me. i knew things were too good to be true,(My negativity has not once failed me in my life!!)
But i was determined to enjoy my C'mas COME WHAT MAY!!!(I love that song)
I had far too much vested in this Christmas! this was one of the first c'mas's in a long time that i was not moving, or giving birth! or engaging the fallout of some major catastrophe in my life!
so i was full steam ahead with c'mas cheer!! I decked the halls, drank Coco,sang carols,Stuffed stockings, made 500 cookies, made gift baskets distributed cookies in the neighbor hood!! along with a from Jesus with love tract and an activated subscription!!! (Go Mommy)
Oh and i individually decorated 20 gingerbread men! I got sooo carried away on this project i had no idea how delightfully fun it would be, once i had decorated about five men in there usual festive outfits i was bored, so i made a hula dancer and a man wearing sunglasses, briefcases and bow ties, fancy shoes and dresses and ribbons in there hair!
I think i know what i want to be when i grow up!--A Ginger bread man decorator!!!

Anyhow I am very proud of myself that i did not let recent developments dampen my joy at c'mas.
and i had a wonderful one--i hope you all did too!
xoxoxox

I love my life!!!

Its true,
I feel soooo blessed all the time I cant believe that I have such good fortune--i almost feel like i am living in a dream and that something very bad has to happen soon as it almost seems too good to be true..Sure there are difficult moments and i dont really do anything 'special' or out of the ordinary--But i don't care, I almost enjoy just doing simple mundane things...Maybe because my whole life has been kinda crazy and "exciting" well compared to lots of ppl I mean who have never left the state or what have you.
I am at the point where i just want a quiet simple life I enjoy very simple pleasures, Like the smell of fresh laundry and kids sleeping while i fold it, (with a glass of wine).
Or a nice clean kitchen!!, or being with my baby at the park.or having a chat with my son on the couch.
My life is full of these simple pleasures and i am therefore content!!

Oooo and I have c'mas in my bones!! this will be a perfect C'mas for me!!
I am not giving birth or moving!!
I will enjoy and savor every moment of it and i will say a prayer every night for those lest fortunate then me.
And God bless us all everyone.

Stockings?? Bah Humbug??

Rick shall get COAL in his stocking!!

Christmas Parade

we went to the fallbrook c'mas parade.
It was fun but lena got really scared of the fire trucks they were honking real loud, and she freaked--we had to leave early.
Her favorate part was seeing the dogs. Of course--here are some pics--most are Trevs photography

OH CHRISTMAS TREE!!

Sooo, i decided that i would decorate my tree wtih feathers this year!!!
it was a bright idea... i actually got the idea while looking at some very pretty ornaments, that sort of reminded me of a peacock!
then that triggerd the idea to Put feathers on my tree, i was all inspired about it and bought a bunch of black and white feathers, and decided to make my own ornaments. so i started glueing rinestones and putting glitter on the feathers to decorate them and of course i had to glue a little loop on to each feather to hang on the tree, any how a quarter of the way through my lavish project i decided that it was waaaay too much work and i didnt have the time for it. oh well but here is what i managed to come up wtih for my tree. i thot i would document it as the kida have damaged it since. od course the pics are in the middle of the day... it is sooo much prettier with the lights on

birthday pics

Wow

Wow!!! I went from a size 36C to a 34-B all in the space of one week!
Crazy!
I just went Bra shopping for like the tenth time this year--what with maternity and nursing and being fat and shrivelling..and found out to my pleasant dismay that i am a 34C that is just one size up from being the smallest possible size you could ever Buy.
But, I am not one to complain, Noooo... Not me! Unlike men, I detest large lumps on my chest and would be a 34C ANY DAY!!!!
Yes that may be strange but I Never wanted bigger boobs--so, hallelujah for righteousness!!

encouraging!

I was having my word time this morning and was reading Jewels from Him!
this quote really stood out to me and i thot it was so beautiful and encouraging--sometimes I can feel condemed that I am not being like a "flaming evangelist" right now or whatever.
But I do work hard and try and pour into my kids and be a help to whomever I can so this quote really encouraged me!

The number-one priority is and always will be love! To love is our biggest responsibility. If you can go to bed at night knowing that you have shown love and given love—to Jesus and to others—then you can rest, knowing that you've accomplished something truly great!

Sooo sweet huh?
One thing that I have realised over the past few months is that Jesus is soooo sweet and un-condeming!
Condemnation and negativity is an area that i have a weekness in and it is such a trap of the enemy as it automatically shields me from the lords love, i start thinking the lord must not love me so therefore whats the use even trying to be spiritual--etc.
Of course if I even take a minute to think about it i know that nothing coule be further form the truth as the lord has been nothing but totally amazing and wonderful to me heaping on so much--so many blessings so much joy and so much love!!!
I love you Jesus