Moving

Been busy the last few days packing. We are making our move Monday!!! PTL Pray it all goes smoothly. we are renting a U-Haul and everything is set. I hate packing tho everything gets sooo messy and it takes so much time. esp when your PG cuz you cant lift all the things you are used to lifting...well I lifted some stuff the other day and I really felt it...it was scary! So, I am under strict orders to not lift anything!!..and Rick is gone the weekend which is when I do all my packing...Arrrg!!
well,PTL! I will have to think very carefully where I start packing a box, as it will most likely stay in that spot for quite a while!! Sigh!
signing off

LHM!

I'm a very Selfish person. That was highlighted quite clearly to me today while reading the word...But,it was a good thing because what is the word supposed to do besides convict you and motivate you to change.
Well I have known this fact for quite sometime now, and that is that I am an Inherently selfish person, and that my natural reactions are usually ones of self preservation, Looking out for number one, Me and Mine etc. (Grant it I believe that this problem has gotten worse as I have gotten older, started my "own family" etc...I promise you I was a very good "Junior,End time,Teen Soldier"!!! Very on fire and ready to drop what I was doing at a moments notice to help another...a real Johnny on the spot!!!
Altho I really cant take too much credit to myself or my own "high Moral standards" as, there really was not much other choice in the matter. (ie..You don't Obey instantly you get a dreaded demerit-- 3 of which in a day consisted of some consequence that I would probably rather not remember)
But suffice it to say it was a good deterrent from evil.
Which brings me to the present. Now that i do not have my trusty demerit chart, and my movie night will not be taken away from me....I feel I have sort of sunken into the more 'real me' and as such have been able to examine myself more clearly and the areas in which a fall dreadfully short! gasp!!
Well, there have been many! And I have had ample time to discover the Horrible truth about myself...as it has been many,many years since my last demerit!

But That is not actually what i was planning on posting about--I was going to post about some of the discoveries that I made in regards to the area of Selfishness. And since realising that i have fallen very short of my youthful expectations of the kind of "loving person" I was supposed to be.
I have set out to analyse Why I am naturally so... well...Not loving,and selfish.

I have spent countless hours trying to figure this out and up until recently I had come up with a pretty fool proof reason why I could justify the acts of my own Sinful nature...By looking at human nature at large. from the earliest tribes of nomads and settlers and Naked ppl running around,One of the fundamental purposes of there existence and what the majority of there time and energy was spent on was in "preserving themselves"...there fight for survival...Survival of the fittest...those who were not motivated by the inborn human desire to protect themselves and those that they loved...were...well... eaten by a pack of wolves, or some such fatality that usually ended in death!
Thus I proposed in my mind that God himself had Given humans this inborn nature as a gift to man to preserve the nations!!!!
And said a thankful prayer and went happily on my way in my delirium that I wasn't really sinful or selfish, Just doing what comes naturally and preserving my little corner of the nation. Until i read this, and it pretty much shot a hole right through my convenient little conclusion and made me want to re-evaluate and change my ways...PTL. Here it is.......

(Jesus) There is much in the nature of man that is selfish and evil and that is meant to be overcome. I have let these things be part of your nature to test you and to cause you to fight, but I do not mean for you to give in to and yield to such weaknesses. I do not mean for you to go the way of the world, the way of all flesh, in this matter of personal possessions and private property and selfish living.

It's human nature to be selfish‚ to put yourself and your own needs and wants and comforts first, and even to put a lot of time and effort into getting things you want. It's something that the Devil has played up since the beginning of time, and it has intensified more and more as time goes on‚ because there are more nice things to acquire all the time.
56. This selfishness and desire for personal comfort is really the root of most of the worldliness that exists, in both the world at large and in the Family. It's a very prevalent spirit among humanity. Well, it is human nature and it is the spirit of the world, but that doesn't mean that it's acceptable to Me. It's not My way

So, basically that made things pretty clear and even tho it is technically a part of 'human nature' God gives us these tendencies not so that we can "give in" to them and be overrun by them, but to challenge us to fight and over come them which is probably pretty much one of the main reasons why we are put on this earth. To learn these lessons, to fight our own evil selves and be over comers and propel ourselves to higher levels, as God has certainly given us the capacity to be much more than just 'base humans.'
We have our minds, our emotions and most of all we have the lord and the opportunity to become all that we should be not just all that we "are"
Cool Huh?
I guess that is what becoming "civilized" is to. learning to deny your baser human instincts for the greater good of humanity, or something....well I think i will stop blabbing here or i could go on all day.

I don't know

well a few days ago I thot of something really important that iIwanted to blog about;but i cant remember now. So, i have absolutely nothing to blog about, actually right now I find everyone else's blogs waaay more interesting then me trying to come up with something on my own.
So there.... I'm off to read everyone else's blogs...better have something interesting--hee,hee.
Ta-ta for now
Mwa

Just got back from the Doctor's and had yet another Ultra-sound.
Normally don't post U-S Pics, cuz i know there hard to see but this one seemed so clear of her little face, I was quite surprised!!-- Its just her face and two little hands--well, it seemed clear to me...but, don't worry if you cant see it...its probably just a sentimental mommy thing anyways...Enjoy!

Pray For us.

I know that not a lot of people read my Blog, But if anyone does stumble across it I could use a little extra Prayer boost Right now.
I have been pretty down and discouraged of late as it seems that the home that we started about 6 mos ago. Is not really working out. I wont get into all the inner workings right now but basically Rick and Myself are needing to move out and find somewhere else to go.
It is a little bit sad for me, as this whole venture seemed so promising at first (Starting this Home) and i was really excited about seeing what the Lord would do with our home and team for the Offensive etc. But I guess we cant always expect things to go the way that we think it should.
Any how Please pray for us during this time as we are expecting our second child very shortly and are pretty much finding ourselves on our own right now. ...As finding a new home takes time.
Please pray for us during this "interim period"--While we have the BABY and look for a new situation to join.
Pray that we will find the lords Highest will for us and that it will open up soon and be clear to us. and for the lords Protection, Comfort and Supply during this time.
Esp, Supply as I will be needing to rely soley on Rick bringing in income for our almost 4 person family...as i am great with child.... GBH!-- Pray for his strength and encouragement and that the lord will open good doors for us while we are on our own and that we can also continue to be a witness and a blessing to others.
It would mean so very,very much to us to have your prayers and a huge heartfelt thanks in advance to all who consider this prayer request.
The lord has also given us some wonderful and comforting promises for us to hold onto during this time, and he has told us that he wants to use this to "stretch our faith"...Always a very good thing.
And Jesus has been so wonderful to us we found a really nice appartment and were accepted in right away, and we are close to dear friends as well, so we know that sweet Jesus has us in the palm of his hands right now, and will not fail in all of his good promises.
I love you
Thank you

Return part 2

This is something that i wrote a while back but apparently never got around to posting....and for lack of anything better to post about.....


Wait did i ever tell you about my trip back from Cambodia?? Its a crazy story!!!
I can see that i did blog from the airport in Taiwan and little did i know as i was sitting there what joys were soon to await me on the final leg of my journey......So here goes, I leave Taiwan after 6 hours of traveling and stop overs...and embark on my flight to LA this is an estimated 15 hour non- stop flight. I am sort of dreading this part of the journey as on my flight down, my feet and ankles swelled terribly, pretty much all the way up to my knees.
When i stood up about a quarter of the way through the flight to use the bathroom my legs just buckled out from under me. They were like Noodles...a very strange experience. One that i don't hope to repeat.
Any how all that to say i wasn't looking forward to the next 15 hours of being confined to my little uncomfortable chair sandwiched between two ppl. but alas that was my fate, PTL things went ok and although uncomfortable i was able to spend quite a bit if time talking to ans witnessing to a very precious girl who i had gotten acquainted with on the previous flight, She was pregnant as well and had put us all through quite a scare on the first flight as she was having "pains" and sort of started freaking out she was pregnant with her first child so was not really aware of what was normal and what was not. any how they moved her to the seat in front of me and started frantically paging a doctor or anyone with doctors experience to please come to the front right away, Oh my Gosh!! I was sitting right behind her and she was crying and ppl were rushing around two men came to the front who said that they were Doctors and I thot man what if this girl is going into premature labour and all these worse case scenarios were coming to my head and i started to feel really sad and vulnerable i think i even started to cry( You know us PG ppl).
Any ways so I start listening to the dialogue that is going on between the doctors and patient, and they are asking her all the "worse case scenario type questions...you know the ones that you can tell if something serious is going on, and any how it turns out that she is just having like indigestion or something... no they actually "diagnosed" her with have "stretching of the abdomen pains"....all you PG ppl know what that feels like....it is a stretching muscle alright...but i thot it was kinda funny everyone was freaking out and it turned out to be Nada.
Any how, later on on our stop over we bumped into each other and started talking and it turns out that she was going through quite a lot at the time and her husband had just told her that he was going to break up with her and she was really freaking out about it as she is in school trying to get her Nursing degree and couldn't deal with all this on her own....Poor baby.
So in the following hours i had lots of time to listen to her hear her out and try and offer any prayer encouragement and support that i could.
so that was really nice and inspiring for me, to feel like the lord may have led me to this sweet girl,so that i could pray for her and encourage her..PTL
But....That was not the end of my exciting story!!!
After we finished our 15 hour flight and touched down in LAX , we hear the news that the "MOTHER COMPUTER" to which the entire net work of computers in the whole airport and Immigrations had shut down early that day and the whole airport was in an uproar. apparently there were 3,500 ppl squished like sardines in the immigrations and they were processing everyone "Manually" and.... get this we were in a" line up with 7 full airplanes in front of us just sitting on the tarmac waiting to disembark. This had been going on all day, and we arrived at (9:00 pm)
Any how they get on the loud speakers and explain that we would not be permitted to disembark, but that we needed to "Prepare ourselves Mentally" for a 5 to 7 hour wait on the airplane... on the tarmac!!!!
What a purge man, I really thot that i would die. my Butt and back muscles were already so sore it was literally excruciating to sit, and my legs were swollen making it difficult to stand!
and to top it off Trevor (whom i hadn't seen in nearly 2 weeks) and Rick hadn't gotten the "Memo" about the airport chaos. and had arrived "right on time with bells on to pick me up!!!
I managed to get a hold of a working cell phone on the plane to call Rick and explain to them that i had arrived but would not be able to leave the plane for quite a few hours.
Poor little Trev he really didn't get it and kept saying where are you mommy I keep looking for you and your not there. I tried to explain that I was really back but the yucky man wouldn't let me off the plane--poor little boy he had to go all the way back home and go to bed with out getting his mommy, We Both cried--I was sooo ready to see my baby.

But, oh well I did survive the ordeal TTL, and hey I've got one for the Grandkids!!
and that was my story, i know that it is a little bit old news by now but it was my adventure
till later