Its time to take a BIG deep breath!! and Exhale!!!
We did it!! Our Move is out of the way and i am starting to actually see what the color of my floor is! ta-da!
we have had stuff littered all over the floor!! Yuk!...there were some pretty intense moments...I suffer major psychological disturbance when my life is literally picked up and Dumped out all over the place... the men leave for work, and i am left to put our lives back together, piece by piece box by box...with a very active and demanding toddler and a 7 year old!!
On numerous occasions i was tempted to just pick every thing up and throw it away..or close my eyes and hope it would all vanish!
But alas no such fortune...I am proud to say that there are only about 10 more boxes...down from about 30...and i can see the light at the end of the tunnel!!
and i am determined more than ever not to move again for a few years..which is unfortunate as we are still not in a house...but if i can make it through this year in an apartment...with Lena the way and age she is..then everything else should be a breeze!! its good i will no longer look at what i can get that would be better but i will make do with what i have and try and find ways to make what i have better--( I really am only making sense to myself--since my blog is my diary) but at least i know whats going on.
So here is to moving and staying put!! to Toddlers and tiaras! to stains on the carpets and 'white everything' in my new apartment--that will be 'Black everything' shortly!--here's to a house warming party and to holidays at MY house! since by God im investing so much time and money into it and Ive got to show it off!
and here is to getting a JOB!!
well that about sums it up!!
meet u in Saint Louie!
Friday, July 03, 2009
Friday, June 12, 2009
Vacation!!!!!
Wooohoooo! Im going to Wasington DC!!! Im so excited it will be my first vacation in Years!!! Ill be flyin out with my brother John..and will get to meet all the rellies..attend my cousins wedding and hopefully get to New York--and Party harty!!!
I cant wait!..Its gonna feel so diffrent going somewhere with out the kids!!
I cant wait!..Its gonna feel so diffrent going somewhere with out the kids!!
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Bleah
Im soooo not interested in cleaning my house..ha
I am completely disenchanted with the place...Im sure its because we are already gonna be moving...so i have invested nothing in the place...no decor nothing...and my apartment is just full of old crap that i want to get rid of mis matched furniture ancient dirty couch--its horrible and it depresses me!!!
I dont know if anyone has ever been there...the real tough part is i have to stay here for another MONTH!!!
Its also a gray gloomy day.....and the worst news of all...I smashed my car!!!
It was my first accident Yet...my car is not a pretty sight...wait till Rick sees.
I am completely disenchanted with the place...Im sure its because we are already gonna be moving...so i have invested nothing in the place...no decor nothing...and my apartment is just full of old crap that i want to get rid of mis matched furniture ancient dirty couch--its horrible and it depresses me!!!
I dont know if anyone has ever been there...the real tough part is i have to stay here for another MONTH!!!
Its also a gray gloomy day.....and the worst news of all...I smashed my car!!!
It was my first accident Yet...my car is not a pretty sight...wait till Rick sees.
Friday, May 29, 2009
Ahem!!!
So my 7 & year old Son just taught my 19 month old daughter how to say.... Poo-poo!!!
Good God!
there is certainly this "bad influence" now, that i didnt have when he was a baby.
But to be honest it sounded soooo funny hearing her soft little voice carefully forming the words poo-poo..that even I had to laugh!!
were so bad...at least there getting along wonderfully--ha
Good God!
there is certainly this "bad influence" now, that i didnt have when he was a baby.
But to be honest it sounded soooo funny hearing her soft little voice carefully forming the words poo-poo..that even I had to laugh!!
were so bad...at least there getting along wonderfully--ha
Saturday, May 23, 2009
Romeo and Juliette
One of my new Favorite songs is the new Taylor Swift song "Love Story" ..Oooo I love it..I am a sickeningly hopeless romantic...I cant help it Im a Libra!!! It is said that a Libra that does not have Romance in her life dies a slow and painful death!!! Ouch.
any how go check out the song...you ll probably hate it but i love it!
here are the Lyrics
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air
See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said
Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes
Saturday, May 16, 2009
ang-coo!
Lena now officially verbalizes the word Thank you!!
Its so cute i just noticed the other day that after i would give her something or if she was particularly happy or excited--(like after I gave in and gave her her "Ice cream" Which by the way she can say very clearly!!!).I would hear this cheery little Ang-coo!
Awwww so cute!
Oh she also LOVES wearing Trevor soccer shin gards...Hence the Photo...m so silly!!!!
Friday, May 15, 2009
Ponderings
I did not like The Shack!!--There I said it! I know it makes me a bad person. because everyone else Loves it and have found great spiritual awakening with it...now maybe i was reading it too fast as it did none of those things for me...Yes it was a good read. that is not what bothered me. it was intriguing. but ok, this is how I will break it down.
I Believe that this book held Revelatory spiritual concepts for some ppl and with that in mind i can see this being a very awe inspiring book. Whereas i have always had very nontraditional ideas about God and Jesus, etc so that aspect of the book, tho inspiring somewhat did not have a majorly profound impact on me.
I guess the main thing that I found disturbing was that the little girl had been allowed to suffer so terribly. being a mother. and having things like this as top on my list of greatest fears..the lack of an escape per se or the lack of an acknowledgement by the author that some how she was able to withstand whatever torture or blank out or be in another place..Sent chills down my spine!!!
You see. I have always chosen to blindly believe that God is Good Just and fair and that he will with the temptation also make a way of escape!!!
and that he will not suffer you to be tempted above what you are able to bear etc.
I simply HAVE to believe this, there is no other option for me. If I chose not to believe that there is some sort of Magic pill that one is given when faced with extreme pain then my life would would be plunged into a black abyss. and it is truly what keeps me sane and safe in the knowledge of Jesus's love. because why believe at all if when it really came down to the crunch there would be no Mercy and no means of escape..Im not saying that bad things wont happen.i know that they will but i also believe that God is bigger than that. and as a child of God the God of the universe who has Power beyond all.. I have to believe that in his love he would do ALL in his power to sustain me even in the midst of gross darkness, pain or tribulation. As I would do for one of my children!
Maybe the author didn't mean to leave this crucial point out. but i went into the Book searching for this exact thing and no i did not find it to the extent that i needed it reiterated. Yes, there was a mention that Jesus was with her at the time...but no explanation as to how it helped her. And when you are writing a story that is that painful- and you want to inspire ppls faith in God--Then this is a very important piece to not leave out!!
To me the book almost had an Evolutionary element to it..at least in my mind. the idea that things just are the way they are..basic cause and effect...the cycle of life etc..that left very little room for the divine!! for divine intervention, for miracles!!!
Personally I love the stories of Martyrs Singing at there deaths!! feeling no fear, and dying with smiles on there faces. Making me Proud of a God who stands by his faithful ones as they stand up for him!!!!
Another favorite of mine is a book written By Betty J Eade...The author of "Embraced by the Light" She has another book entitled the "Ripple effect" in which she tries to recall some of the conversations she had with the Lord while in heaven.
She has asked the lord some of the same questions i guess that have plagued me. and she was shown a real live example..she was allowed to watch as a little girl on earth was being abused by her father and as the abuse intensified. the little girl was actually removed from her body and spent time playing with Jesus in a beautiful Garden!!!
Now this is the picture I want to have of a God of mercy and of love.And this is who I will willing trust my life and the life of my children with!
Any how. I do apologise to any one who is a major Fan of the Book the Shack, and i meant no disrespect..just trying to Process my own tho ts and Beliefs...and I really am terrible at expressing myself....and this is probably a waay too honest Post for a blog...but I do not have a diary....so hold nothing against me as i humbly try and process deep spiritual things...Hey at least i still think about things. Or better yet if you walked away with something that you know I am obviously not seeing (I am very dense) Please do share...I have a deep craving for an understanding of spiritual things.
I Believe that this book held Revelatory spiritual concepts for some ppl and with that in mind i can see this being a very awe inspiring book. Whereas i have always had very nontraditional ideas about God and Jesus, etc so that aspect of the book, tho inspiring somewhat did not have a majorly profound impact on me.
I guess the main thing that I found disturbing was that the little girl had been allowed to suffer so terribly. being a mother. and having things like this as top on my list of greatest fears..the lack of an escape per se or the lack of an acknowledgement by the author that some how she was able to withstand whatever torture or blank out or be in another place..Sent chills down my spine!!!
You see. I have always chosen to blindly believe that God is Good Just and fair and that he will with the temptation also make a way of escape!!!
and that he will not suffer you to be tempted above what you are able to bear etc.
I simply HAVE to believe this, there is no other option for me. If I chose not to believe that there is some sort of Magic pill that one is given when faced with extreme pain then my life would would be plunged into a black abyss. and it is truly what keeps me sane and safe in the knowledge of Jesus's love. because why believe at all if when it really came down to the crunch there would be no Mercy and no means of escape..Im not saying that bad things wont happen.i know that they will but i also believe that God is bigger than that. and as a child of God the God of the universe who has Power beyond all.. I have to believe that in his love he would do ALL in his power to sustain me even in the midst of gross darkness, pain or tribulation. As I would do for one of my children!
Maybe the author didn't mean to leave this crucial point out. but i went into the Book searching for this exact thing and no i did not find it to the extent that i needed it reiterated. Yes, there was a mention that Jesus was with her at the time...but no explanation as to how it helped her. And when you are writing a story that is that painful- and you want to inspire ppls faith in God--Then this is a very important piece to not leave out!!
To me the book almost had an Evolutionary element to it..at least in my mind. the idea that things just are the way they are..basic cause and effect...the cycle of life etc..that left very little room for the divine!! for divine intervention, for miracles!!!
Personally I love the stories of Martyrs Singing at there deaths!! feeling no fear, and dying with smiles on there faces. Making me Proud of a God who stands by his faithful ones as they stand up for him!!!!
Another favorite of mine is a book written By Betty J Eade...The author of "Embraced by the Light" She has another book entitled the "Ripple effect" in which she tries to recall some of the conversations she had with the Lord while in heaven.
She has asked the lord some of the same questions i guess that have plagued me. and she was shown a real live example..she was allowed to watch as a little girl on earth was being abused by her father and as the abuse intensified. the little girl was actually removed from her body and spent time playing with Jesus in a beautiful Garden!!!
Now this is the picture I want to have of a God of mercy and of love.And this is who I will willing trust my life and the life of my children with!
Any how. I do apologise to any one who is a major Fan of the Book the Shack, and i meant no disrespect..just trying to Process my own tho ts and Beliefs...and I really am terrible at expressing myself....and this is probably a waay too honest Post for a blog...but I do not have a diary....so hold nothing against me as i humbly try and process deep spiritual things...Hey at least i still think about things. Or better yet if you walked away with something that you know I am obviously not seeing (I am very dense) Please do share...I have a deep craving for an understanding of spiritual things.
Day ,day Go away!!!
So, I did it again. I should know better by now. But in the throes of itchy eyes weezing and sneezing i Popped my glorius (Non drowsy)claritin pill only to realize to my horror that it was already past 10:00 pm. and even tho the Doctor tells me the nondrowsy medicine should not keep me awake..my body begs to differ!! and not only does it keep me awake it gives me a full on shot of major adrenaline that faaaar surpasses coffee!!!! (hey I should Pop one with my morning brew)
So i am left to "Buzz the whole night through..painfully aware of the ticking clock and every cough weeze and drip from my nose!!
so thats where it has left me this morning with less than 3 hours of sleep under my belt and a full day of home school, chaous, a sick baby and mounds of dishes and laundry...i am holding my second cup of coffee and starring into space, wishing today would be the day "the earth stood still"... frozen in time...so that i would have a chance to slowly catch up!!!
So i am left to "Buzz the whole night through..painfully aware of the ticking clock and every cough weeze and drip from my nose!!
so thats where it has left me this morning with less than 3 hours of sleep under my belt and a full day of home school, chaous, a sick baby and mounds of dishes and laundry...i am holding my second cup of coffee and starring into space, wishing today would be the day "the earth stood still"... frozen in time...so that i would have a chance to slowly catch up!!!
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